mental and emotional abuse..

[kayla1234]

so.... I just looking back in hindsight now....
I suppose I was in an abusive relationship.
Mentally and emotionally that is, although I don't really know if that should even count... especially since I'm only 15. It's not really that big of a deal I guess... I don't think I'm going to be scarred for life of something....

The funny thing is though... I really loved him..........

And I wasn't just being manipulated into loving him because of all of the yelling and stuff.... I really, truly did... kinda still do I suppose....

How is that even possible? I mean... It wasn't always like this... and half of the time he was REALLY nice and I felt 100% safe in all aspects. Safe to just open up and everything too.... But... there were times he was really mean and it seemed like he forgot he was even speaking to a human being with sentient thought and emotion......

I just... I don't understand how this happened... How can you fall in love with someone who hurts you...? Was it because I fell in love with him before he started being so mean...???