Is it my fault?

[invisiblewolverine11]

When I was around 7 or 8 years old I was molested by not one, but two men. One was my friends dad & the other was a family friends brother. I never told anyone because 1 I didn't know it was wrong at the time & 2 because I grew up without a dad and was just desperate for love from a man. I know I should've told someone & I beat myself up everyday for it because it has caused so many emotional and anger issues for me. I know I can't tell my mom now because she'll just get mad, she's also contributed to emotiobal issues that I have. I don't have any friends and I stay at home all day when I'm not in school. I'll probably get rid of my cell phone soon because I never get any calls or texts. Is it all my fault that I am angry alot sometimes for no reason. I'd like to go to so kind of therapy, i'd really like to have a therapist, but we can't afford it. I just don't know what to do.

[david2357]

how could it be your fault? you were 7

[oegirl14]

I was raped over and over agian for 3 months by my boyfriend than a year later my "best friend" raped me and I gave up. I understand how you feel, but the one thing you have to know is it isn't your fault. I know it hurts, but as long as you know it isn't your fault your pain will dim, not go away, but dim

[oegirl14]

If you ever need to talk to someone who understands, I'm here with open ears