how do i get over this

[mbhorses]

well i'm not exactly sure how to come about this....this is about rape and abuse.
when i was 5 years old i was raped by a few family members this lasted till i can't remeber . i have been trying to recover from this but nothing seems to work. I tried talking to friends about it but no one understands not even my mom. Ive told her and she never believed me about any of it. but now shes tryin to be there for me. (says she is,but truthfully shes not) . Anyways. i can remeber alot from it and every night i have horrifying nightmares that leave me crying in the middle of the night. anything triggers this smells,pictures,songs, and it's horrible to be sitting in class tryin to not show it. they have done everything you can imagine. one of them use to hurt me if i didn't give him something he wanted. at night he use to come in my bed and pull down his pants and make me give him things. the recent thing was when twilight came out and he fingered me on the couch while my mom was at the other end...ive tried telling people but no one could help me for the longest time ever i thought it was normal. i need help. i wont go into explict detail it is to graphic.
but this leaves me with little sleep and i am embarrrased to sit in class and get memories and relive parts of it. and when people ask i just say nothing. if things arnt differnt in my room i have to change it so i dont remeber i wake up at night worrying if he's coming or not.. this was done by more than one person. please help.