Triggering: He's Back..

[I'm-moving-on]

My 16 brother molested me at least once daily for at least a year starting when I was six years old. It felt disgusting and I hated it, but I didn't want to disappoint him or make him or our parents mad at me, so I didn't try to fight him. No one found out until another brother walked in on it happening once, and made me admit it to him, before telling our parents and my other siblings. The brother who did it denied everything, and my dad believed him and took his side. My mom believed my other brother. A family fight started which ended in everyone just being angry, and no one outside ever getting involved. After that night, he stopped and no one mentioned it again. He went off to the military and was away for years. Well, a few months ago he moved back in with us. Since he got back, I've been terrified he is going to try to do something again. I've been having nightmares and haven't been eating, and started cutting myself to deal with the guilt I still feel from it. I fear he will hurt me if he wants to do it again, and I won't be able to tell anyone.

[Iris. ♥]

Can you talk to your mom or your other brother about this? If they believed you once, they'll probably be willing to look out for you. Neither of them wants you to be hurt again. If there's a way you can avoid ever being alone with him, do it! If he even tries to touch you again, report it right away. Stay strong.

[I'm-moving-on]

I can't exactly tell either of them. My mom doesn't want to ruin her family, so she will never discuss it again, and my other brother lives in a different state. I try to avoid him as often as possible, but I'm always at home alone and he gets off work early often, and I don't want him to touch me again, but sometimes he randomly makes offhanded threats so I won't stand up to him.

[Ally_Georgiiie]

Oh I'm so sorry about evrything that happened to you. I can understand that it must be so dificult for you! But I think that you should try TRY not to think to much about it. I think you should keep away from him and just let him be. If he does do it again then do tell your mother about it. I think thats probebly the best you can do.
Hope I've been of some help to you, my pm box is allways open for you should you need to talk.
Good luck

[I'm-moving-on]

Thanks. I'm trying to not think about it, and at the same time be cautious enough to keep myself away from being hurt as much as I can.

[Iris. ♥]

I agree with Ally. Just try to keep your distance. If he does do something to you, tell someone IMMEDIATELY. You don't deserve to be hurt like that.

[DerJagger]

Look, i don't have experience with any of this stuff but i'll just give you my two cents. Firstly, this is in no way shape or form you fault. You never asked for any of this to happen neither did you seek it out, you were a defenseless child who became a victim. That said your brother is the one who needs help, he probably has a need to seek out young children and may have to satisfy that craving whether you know it or not, keep in mind that there could be other victims. Some sort of counseling will do you and your brother good. Also, You can't stay quiet about this situation because your brother will do the same thing he did to you to other girls. Just think about when your brother has children of his own or is around other children, he needs some therapy that the law could probably arrange. Since the incident between you and him took place a long time ago he will probably not be arrested because of statue of limitations. But the first thing you must do is talk with your family; have a heart to heart with your mother and other brother discussing what happened and come up with a coarse of action, after that approach the rest of your family making sure they understand. This will be extremely difficult at first but remember that things will get better down the road as stuff sorts itself out. Please please please PM me if you have any more questions or if i could help in any way. I wish you all the best -Sasha