Dont know what i feel

[blondiegirl]

Sorry if this gets bit long
For a long time now, since i was 16 i havent felt close to a guy in the relationship sense. My bes friend is a guy but even him i dont want to be near sometimes because he is contstantly worrying about me. Its not that i dont like guys i do but im scared of getting close again because i had bad experiences when i was 16 with some guys. Basically i push everyone away from me, i dont know why but i do even the ones i should trust. I feel like i just cant sort my head out i never know what i want and i can coover i all upwell untill i get drunk or something and end up really upset. My therapist told me to be more open with people but i feel like i cant tell people how i feel and what i want when i havent even figured it out for myself yet. Im just so confused with myself

If this is in the wrong place feel free to move it.

[annabanana.]

Hey there,

I want to start by telling you that you aren't on your own - I myself am scared of letting people in and getting too close. To be honest, it's just a barrier we have to overcome ourselves as we move past things. There is no easy answer, no definate way of solving this.

It will take time, but you will be able to let people in close as time moves on. It's alright to be confused, many teenagers are - it's a battle against time to find yourself, that's what many people see it like. But as you grow up all through life, you will learn more things about yourself.

I think, if you really don't want to talk to people about it then could you try writing a journal or diary of your emotions? It can be useful to have a good old rant in there Or if you don't feel able to voice your feelings, could you write them down in like a letter and give it to a friend you trust? Just so they know about it.Either way I think you need to find a way of getting your feelings out. At least tell people what you know.

PM me if you need a chat,
Take care.
Anna