could i have OCD?

[GoneBeyondRepair]

i know what OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) is and all that, but im not sure if i just have some personalities of it, or the acctaual disorder. like, whenever i would walk to my bus stop, or home from school, i would have to walk on a certian side of the street until a certian point, and then cross to walk on the othre side, not step on any cracks, and walk at a certian pace. for just walking somewhere, im super careful not to step on any cracks, and walk at a certian pace. if i dont, i start to feel sick, i guess you could say. and then his year at school, i always had to wear a certian sweat shirt everyday, (of cource i washed it every few days) or i would feel exposed and stuff. on the bus, in the morning and afternoon, i had to sit in a certian seat listening to my ipod, or it would feel like my brain was exploding and that the bus would get in a huge accident and either i would be the only one to get injured and die, or be the only survivor and be cumpleatly unharmed. adn then ive noticed that whenever i need to concentrate on something, or im thinking, or im getting stressed or nervus, i either start tapping my fingers, biting my nails, chew on my pencil, whistle, tap my feet or try and crack my nuckles. (try because sometimes i had just cracked them so i couldnt again for a little bit) every half hour or so, i find that i have to pop my knees, elbows or wrists, or try to, until it just feel right i guess. when im not listening to music, i habe to go through lyrics to sngs in my head or i start to freak out- like, pretty much have a panic attack. i have to have everything just perfect, or i have to rearrange it all so it is, or else i feel like something bad will happen. in each vehicle, i have to sit in a certian seat or else i feel like well be cought up in a huge accident, and ill loose evryone i love. if whatever room im in, i dont have the fan on, i feel like the building will catch on fire, like the fan being on could magicly make the bouilding not catxh fire. could i be suffering from OCD, or could this just be some random thing that is really nothing or something compleatly different? if any of this makes any sence...

[Jen]

Hey Jordan!

It definitely COULD be OCD. But the best thing you can do is a talk to a doctor/therapist/psychiatrist, as they are the ones who are qualified to tell you for sure. Do you feel that these behaviors are interfering with your life? If so, that's a definite sign that something isn't right. I'd let someone know, like a parent, that you are having a hard time, and ask them to see a doctor--even your own doctor.

Good luck to you!
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