Massive Uncertainty

[Mixtape91]

So I'm on meds for depression/bipolar type 2 (the doctor says she doesn't want to define it as that). I feel like things are falling apart again, only, with the medication I've been on for a few months its as if I cant fall into that pit of emptiness that I'm used to. Its like its where i used to be but with the meds, I'm not sinking like I should. Instead of drowning, I'm wading and bobbing up and down with these dangerous waves of depression. I'm not depressed-depressed but have the emotions & uncertain state of depression (if that makes sense - I don't really now how to explain it any other way).

Has anybody been through something like this?

My meds are working (the stuff I'm on is the only thing that has ever helped and i have tried ALOT of other things). To a certain extent, I'm starting to think that this depression thing is going to be incurable.

..is that possible?

[Thirteen]

Well, hopefully I can give you hope here...

I know someone who has, well, more like HAD Depression. It was diagnosed, he had gone through the lows, even the lowest lows (if you get what I mean). He got on a regiment with anti-depressants, he had to try a couple before getting the right one.

After awhile, he started withdrawing himself from the anti-depressants, when he felt he was ready to. Now, he's off the anti-depressants completely and has been doing pretty well.

So, it's manageable, and well, if your medications go well, one day you may not need them.