An Indescribable Loneliness

[RunningWild]

Hi everyone, I'm new to the site. My name is Emily.

The reason I'm posting here is because I've felt simply hopeless for several weeks and I can't figure out why or how to fix it.

I started university in August. Since going, I've made many new friends and they're very nice. But I can't say I've bonded with anyone particularly. And at the same time, I feel all of my high school friends slipping away.

I also met my current boyfriend at college. Unfortunately, the attraction I felt at first is just...gone. He still texts me a lot and I can tell he still cares a lot about me, and he's just such a wonderful guy but I just don't feel anything when he kisses me.

Also, I'm struggling with my sexuality. I listed myself as bisexual on this website because that's what I think I might be. I can't help but find women attractive. And I'm really scared about it. But mostly, I'm just completely and utterly lonely.

I don't know what to do about it because my parents just don't seem to have time for me and I'm just not a part of my old friends' lives anymore.

It's hard enough for me to get out of bed in the morning and I don't know why I'm so depressed.

Any help would be amazing.

[♥ Choir. ♥]

Hey Emily,

For your high school friends slipping away, if you're worried about that, don't let them slip away! Talk to them on facebook, text them, call them, meet up with them outside of college and work so you can be with them. Some people will slip away after they no longer see each other every day, but you'd be able to keep them if you still stay in touch and see each other.

Talk to your boyfriend about that, tell him that you're not sure if you feel attraction, and you'd like to have time to think and figure it all out. Straight, bisexual, gay, or lesbian, it doesn't matter. God created us all in His image, by Him we're all wonderful. I have great friends both on here and in real life, who are gay, lesbian, or bisexual. I don't think anything different of them because of it, people who do care, shouldn't care what your sexual preferences are.

Since you're in college now, I'm willing to bet that your parents might want to try to give you more freedom. You're not an adult yet, and I'm willing to bet that they're trying to help you become one.

Getting out of bed in the morning can be hard when you have nothing to look forward to in your day. Try to plan things to do that will get you excited, and maybe forget about being depressed. It doesn't sound like it, but it really does help.

PM or VM me with anything,

Eclipse

[CitizenErased]

Hey Emily, Welcome to TeenHelp Im sorry to hear that your feeling lonely. There are always so many people on here that would love to talk to you. You can talk to me any time. Im sure your sexual confusion will all become clear to you soon enough, just give yourself time to think your feelings through.