Non-PG13 (Strong Language): oh my god.

[TakeMeHigher]

fuck knows whats actually going on inside my head at the moment.
I'll list a few events that have taken place and maybe, just maybe someone could make some sense of it.
1.) Im so confused with my sexuality right now, a girl has messed with my head and i literally don't have a clue
2.) been getting shit off people at school for being 'easy' and a slag or whatever, for basically foreplaying with some horrible guy when i was so drunk i didnt know what i was doing
- ive lost my temper so much in the last few weeks, and actually ended up assaulting someone. wondering also if i need anger management or something, because i find it hard to control myself when and if i ever under a situation where i am being made fun off for whatever reason
3.) plus all the exam stress , which there is plently off.

basically, some shit went down tonight
i do apologise for my language, but i cant express myself properly right now.
I went to a guys (guy a) house party, I snogged guy B and guy B got a lot of shit because guy a apparently liked me, i knew guy a liked me, but i had told him that i didnt and he should get over me. Guy b didnt know guy a liked me Everythings a little fuzzy after that....until mme and guy a had a few moments to ourself, we erm yano got a little frisky. no-one saw that. so ye then after that we all calmed down and decidedd to go to bed.

Guy b crashed out on the sofa and i slept in the double bed pstairs, Guy a slept on the floor buy i told him it was fine to sleep in the bed, it wasn't like we' do anything?
turns out that i was just well i don't know what i was thinking, im not attracted to this guy one bit but basically i let him yano to me, then oh my god i couldnt of felt worse.
sort of broke down...

walked home at 4am

what the FUCK

oh god

(((((((((((((((

i need to just wioejksfrhskghkjdg fuck knows. help.

[MissInnocentSuicide]

I know what its like to regret something. and to like two guys at once. Well when i regret something i always tell someone..such as my mum, but if you dont want to tell her go to the closest church and confess. As for the guys you have to think which one wwill treat you better and take a chance with them..hopefully i helped D

[kgo446]

Wow it really sounds like you've been on a rollercoaster.
Firstly, calm down.
Don't worry about your sexuality for now, you're 16, and you have plenty of time to figure out your feelings towards others, don't let anyone mess with you or force you to make any harsh decision or do anything impulsive.
For the anger, seriously try just breathing deeply, I thought it was rubbish until I tried it myself. If you are in a bad situation just WALK AWAY. And if you physically cant just go away somewhere in you're head.
Try to take some time to yourself, away from madness and sex and concentrate on time for yourself as well as study time.
Best of luck

[TakeMeHigher]

sorry my head was everywhere last night at 5am when i wrote this haha it was more of a rant and a rave, thanks x

[JKmadu619]

Getting drunk underage is really stupid, there's a reason they have regulations about it, and it's no wonder you did something dumb. However you did not have sex with him, and I see no reason why that makes you a bad person. Many teens are getting STD's and pregnant at this very moment. Ignore it. That's it for the "Holyier than thou" rant.

Anyway, about questioning your sexuality, that's normal at your age. Don't act on anything until you're sure. Do what you feel is right.

Also about having to choose between "Guy A" and "Guy B" don't. No guy who is worth your time will make pressure you into a relathionship. However cheating on any individual is another story. In other words, make wise choices that reflect the wise person you are.

You have alot of stress right now, and I wish you the best of luck.

- Justin