Is it possible she is right and I'm bipolar or something?

[FlyOnTheWall]

I think might actually be something wrong with me. For the past almost 3 years (I’m almost 16 now) I’ve just figured all the problem was just in my head and that it was my own fault I was so sad, so I learned tried to deal but lately I’ve been talking to one friend of mine and she thinks I’m bipolar like she is. I smile when I should still do well in school decent grades, honors classes, class president even. But I’m falling apart. I don’t think. Idk if I can. I have scars all over my legs. And well I have no good reason to be sad. I mean of course I have problems but they are minor. My mom controlling my life, I live for other people (take care of my big sisters like they are younger a lot of the time but I’m kind of used to it), I feel so lonely always but I have some friends at school and I mean I’m not like alone always. I shouldn’t feel this way.

Sometimes the numbness I feel goes away though. Sometimes, I’m even happy! I love those afternoons where I can just get away from my house and away from this world were I’m trying so hard to be good enough but I can’t be.. Sometimes though I freak out a little bit, those nights I throw my stuffed animals at the wall, wish I could still cry, and sometimes I cut.. I freak out I try texting or talking to one of my friends lately when that happens but I sound SO crazy. Saying how I hate them I hate myself, all these mean things I shouldn’t say.. Is it all just inside my head or could it actually be something? I'm so scared to get help I don't want to hurt my family who is all convinced I'm happy..

[LeapOfFayth]

That doesn't sound like bipolar at all, from experience just cause I have bipolar.

It actually just sounds like some sort of depression. Bipolar includes depression yes, but the key component is mania or hypomania. Mania or hypomania is hard to describe so I'm just going to direct you to wikipedia or google, but its a lot more than being happy. Everything you described to me though sounds like a mix of normal teenage hormones and maybe some depression.
It would still merit a visit to a profesional though so I would make an appointment with your doctor to speak about it.

[katie4evrr1]

Okay, from what you have said, though feel free to add more details so I can get an even better understanding, you are most likely severely depressed. This can cause mood swings but its more from the stress thrown on you. Taking care of your sisters can be causeing you to break in spirit. Although you should talk to a docter before being 100% sure. I know i am ALOT like you. I actually am planning on going in for testing for bipolar and i am only 14. Can you go more in depth on you mood swings? Because for me they are very bad. One minute I will feel like I am having a personal high. However, all of a sudden I will get into an angery mood, then everyone has hell to pay. But this is usually caused for no reason for me... Have you ever found yourself crying and not knowing why? Maybe, screaming at someone because you felt like you needed to? Or is it caused by minimal things that will set you off?

Another possibility I forgot to mention was hormones... that causes TONS of mood swings and can make you feel like there is something wrong. Maybe try doing alittle research and then having a discussion with your docter. They can give medication to help like birth control or anti depressants (<--- only if really bad), however, they usually stick with birth control if female (which i am assuming you are, lemme know if im wrong) xp. Hope I helped!! be Strong <3