Do I Have a Serious Problem?

[TwilightDwells]

Hey,

I have insane jealousy, not RELATIONSHIP jealousy though, but I do have jealousy issues.
It gets really bad, sometimes so bad that I lock myself in my room and cry, it's so out of hand but I can't stop. Every time someone has the same thing I have, or has read the same book I've read, or they're smarter, or better, or taller, or even SHORTER than me--I instantly get really jealous, and angry, my stomach twists and I start to cry. Because of this issue I have problems with "hiding" things.
I have a problem, that whenever someone comes over or I am seen with something I don't want others to want or have, I always hide it or tell that person that they don't want it 'cos it's "boring" or "stupid" etc. I just don't know what do anymore. I don't know what could have caused this, I just remember always being this way, but it's just getting worse and worse.
I don't know what to do, I mean, I know I'm depressed, and have Anxiety issues, but I just don't know about this. I mean, it's gotten out of hand, I think. Whenever people come over, not a single thing that I want them to touch, or look atm or want, or ANYTHING has to be out of sight. I hide it, I hide things from my own sister because I'm scared she'll want it or take it.
Does this sound like it's gotten too bad? I'm trying to 100% truthful here. I've been thinking about death and suicide a lot too, I think it's partially because of this, but I don't know anymore. I'm really confused. It seems like the only thing I'm living for is to not let people have or want what's mine. Would that even be considered "jealousy" issues? Or something else.
I don't know.
What do I do? What do you think I should do?

[Whisperer]

Hey Katie,
I'm not exactly sure how to help about the jealousy but if you have been thinking about suicide and death it's definitely important to speak with a trusted adult. It's possible that it could be part of the depression but I'm not a doctor. It can be scary reaching out to others asking for help but I'm sure if you find someone trained to help they will be able to help with your jealousy. Often in mental illnesses one thing triggers another which triggers another and soon enough you have no clue where these random things came from. And that doesn't mean it can't be fixed. All it means is that you have to find the root of the problem first. So here, the first step is to reach out to someone in your life who has the ability to help you or find someone who can help you. Let me know how it goes.
Alessa

[Maloo]

Since this is something that is clearly bothering you a lot, I would suggest going to a therapist. It couldn't hurt, and they might be able to give you advice on how to deal with the extreme jealousy.

If you do decide to seek counseling, keep this in mind - The first therapist you start seeing might not be the one for you. You may have to try a few different people before you find someone you're comfortable with, so don't get discouraged if things don't work out right away.