I Can't Stop Hating On Myself?

[CaughtInMyHead]

For years I have said very negitive things to myself, and for years, deep down, I have hated myself. I don't know why, but today I thought about trying something that I always thought would be far too impossible for me to do, for many reasons but the main is that I believe I'm not good enough to do it. Anyways for a moment I thought to myself that I could and I got excited, then suddenly I kind of just flipped out on myself. As crazy as this sounds, but I slapped myself twice and hard in the face. Then I yanked on my hair and told myself that I couldn't do it and said a bunch of horrible things to myself. Like for a moment I honestly wanted to hurt myself, not physicall, but mentally. Like when I found hope all I wanted to do was destroy it for myself. It makes no sense I know, but it was such a strange feeling that I can't help but wonder what happened.
Any ideas on why I would want to hurt myself mentally?
What should I do?

[PSY]

People don't hate themselves for no reason. Generally, it stems from something a person told them over and over again, or from something a person did or failed to do over and over again. For example, a lot of people grow to hate themselves because their parents, siblings, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, etc. tell them they aren't loveable, either with words or through their actions. Can you think of anything that might have led to the development of your current belief system?

If you truly lack insight regarding this issue, it may help to meet with a psychological professional. Someone who specializes in the psychodynamic or similar approaches would attempt to dig into the subconscious, in order to help you discover what led to the development of your current belief system. Someone who specializes in cognitive therapy could help you substitute these maladaptive thoughts for alternative, more positive/constructive thoughts. The important thing is to find someone that you can trust and work with over the course of time, in order to change the destructive thoughts and behaviors you are currently engaging in.