Help or advice...? :confused2:

[Astrael]

I really just have a problem and its kinda hard to explain.

Recently(since October or so of last year), I've started to realize I'm kind of void of emotions. I can't remember anything big happening around that time that would trigger this either. Like I don't get genuinely happy, but I don't get really upset or anything bad either. I've done things that I would have normally liked to just have something to do so I'm not bored all the time but I don't enjoy it as much as I used to. Like I'm empty or something.

I've even taken a few "online diagnosing" type tests(normally I think the tests are off or wrong) and the majority of them (particularly one set up from my university to kind of give you an idea of any personality/mental disorders you could possibly have(it was a requirement to take since I'm a freshman here, everything was confidential though so if you didn't want the info to go out, it wouldn't)) said I have mild to severe depression. I'm not really sure how else to describe it, but I don't really think I'm depressed. Void of emotions, yeah but suicidal? I don't know.

Any one have any input on this...?

[Ella.x]

You don't have to feel suicidal or sad to have depression. Do you show any of the other symptoms of depression? It might be worth speaking to a doctor, since either way, they are the only people who can tell you for sure whether or not you have depression. You said that nothing big happened around the time you started lacking emotions, but were there any smaller changes that could have affected you?

[Astrael]

I don't really know any other signs of depression. :/
and I really can't think of anything that would have triggered it into happening. It was just a normal month; friends, family, job, senior year of high school... It just started randomly happening that I would care less and less about some things.

[_sunsets64.]

here are some other symptoms:

(www) .nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/men-and-depression/symptoms-of-depression-and-mania.shtml
Not everyone who is depressed experiences every symptom. Some people experience only a few; some people suffer many. The severity of symptoms varies among individuals and also over time.
Depression
Persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” mood.
Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism.
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness.
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyable, including sex.
Decreased energy, fatigue; feeling “slowed down.”
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions.
Trouble sleeping, early morning awakening, or oversleeping.
Changes in appetite and/or weight.
Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts.
Restlessness or irritability.
Persistent physical symptoms, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain that do not respond to routine treatment.
“You don’t have any interest in thinking about the future, because you don’t feel that there is going to be any future.”
-Shawn Colten, National Diving Champion
“I wouldn’t feel rested at all. I’d always feel tired. I could get from an hour’s sleep to eight hours sleep, and I would always feel tired.”
-Rene Ruballo, Police Officer

I would read up on other symptoms if you want, but also go to a doctor like Ella said, that's the only way to know for sure and then you can get some help, too.

[Astrael]

thanks. I think I'm gonna go into my campus' counseling center pretty soon and see what they say.

[Dream]

Are you on any medications? They could cause this.

[_sunsets64.]

Let us know how it goes with your counseling center, and I hope you feel better!