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I hate looking at myself. - October 26th 2013, 04:25 PM

I'm not sure this fits here, so please move it if it doesn't. I figured I might get some good replies from the folks on this board, though.

I suffered through an eating disorder for a year. During that time, I weighed a certain amount that I won't disclose which made me feel very good about myself. I've recovered from that eating disorder, but slipped into a binging habit that I can't get over, no matter how hard I try. I can't fit into my jeans anymore, and I just threw away the biggest pair I had left because I hated the option of even fitting into them again.

I look at myself in the mirror, and I feel like breaking down in tears. I look like my mother. I feel like I look like a mess constantly. I don't know how to handle all of this. I can't get back to eating properly. It's too damn cold to go running - which is the only kind of exercise I really like doing. My bras and underwear are cutting into me, and I won't get bigger sizes because I can't. I will not allow myself to.

I don't look on the outside at all what I feel like I am on the inside. On the inside, I'm brilliant and full of light. On the outside, I'm flabby and dingy and unassuming.

I'm so angry with myself right now. Why can't I stop eating?


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