absolutely pointless

[gottagetwell]

after coming outta hospital a few weeks ago ive been gettin on ok with my bulimia and diabetes. But now the person i see from mental health has arranged a big meetin with me my dad my stp mum, 2people frm mh, my old school nurse, 2diabetic nurses a dietician and a woman from connections i dont know. My bulimia really doesnt want me 2 go and i dont see the point cuz i wont say owt infront of em all and i dont need the help. i cant get out of it though. i think itl make me worse

just had to let it out soz x

[x-x-xblackx-x-xrosex-x-x]

Heya Chole.

I know the idea of getting help at the moment is not the best thing ever, and you just want to be left alone with you bulima and try and fight it yourself.
But the truth is and Im sure you know this yourself deep down that you do infact need help, you deserve to be a healthy happy girl. Maybe if you spoke to the person that is arranging this big meet and tell them that you can't talk about it with so many people, I'm sure they would understand.

If you want to talk more PM me anytime

Mags
xx

[Jen]

Hey Chloe,

Remember that the point of the meeting is to help YOU. So you get to ask for what you need. You can tell them what's helpful, what's not, what you need, what you don't need, etc. You can actually help guide the meeting because this is your life and they are there to help YOU. Having that outlook can help to make you feel a bit more in control of the situation.

It might be helpful to think about what you would want to say to them or what you would want them to do for/say to you. Let us know how it goes, okay? Take good care of yourself and I'm here if you need anything.

<3

[gottagetwell]

ye i think i need 2 think of something 2 say or ill lie through the whole thing. il update afta it but its not til wednesday. ill prob add some thing that im thinking bout saying before though to see if people think its the right thing to say. at the mo i feel like going in saying im fine and i dont need help which i know int the best thing 2 do x

[floatingangel]

hey hun, they can't force you to say wat you don't want to.. and i know how it feels like sitting in front of counsellors and family members you seriously do not want to talk to. but honestly, if you could be honest with them, it can be really important to lead you into recovery... maybe you can make arrangements with them if you're not comfortable with someone being there?

[eunoia]

Hey there, Chloe.

I'm glad you're thinking things through rather than going to this meeting with your mind made up to lie. You seem to understand that honesty will be much more helpful to you than lying. And it will.

Although sharing how you are truly feeling with the people at this meeting may be very hard for you, it might also really help you. There will be people there who understand what you are going through. The people will be there because they want to help you. And you deserve help, you really do.

I know you can do this, Chloe. Why not make a list of things you could say and take it with you, kind of like a "cheat sheet." That way, if you get a little tongue tied, you'll have your list to refer back to for things you wanted to share.

Take care of yourself and let me know if you need anything. I'm just a PM away. =)

[gottagetwell]

hey
So the big meeting got cancelled! im so happy but ive just ate a bag of popcorn and 14 tea cakes so i know im gona be sick sumtime tonite.
But having the meeting cancelled has annoyed me cuz i ant been sleepin i was so worried! At least now i can sort myself out cuz i think ive been worse recently cuz i been so scared of the help when i know i can do a lot alone.
If anyones confused bout the meeting thing read my last thread xx glad im sorted xx

[Jen]

Hey there Chloe,

I just wanted to give you a head's up that you might not get the response you were looking for. My guess is that nobody here is going to be happy for you that the big meeting was cancelled, and that's because we care about you. As many others wrote in your previous thread, it's important that you are accepting support, or at least being open to people who want to help you. You have expressed several times your feelings about your eating disorder and it seems like you DO want to get better, but you're scared. This is natural, Chloe.

The thing is, is recovery isn't always easy and it can be really scary. But that's why you have the support of your family, friends, teachers, doctors, and everyone else who was going to go to the meeting. It's understandable to be scared of help, because part of you wants to hold onto your bulimia. But I don't know anyone who recovered without help, love, and support.

If having a huge big meeting is too scary for you, what about having a smaller meeting with fewer people? That might seem more manageable and be a good compromise. What do you think about that?

<3

[SummerTiger]

I honestly don't think you should be this happy. Sometimes things that we hate end up helping us. You're acting very rashly here..... And I so do not envy you.... 14 tea cakes... urghhhh

You really shouldn't say that you're "sorted." This just doesn't make sense to me. To be TRULY sorted would mean NOT eating what you've just eaten, at least in my mind.

Hope you pull through.

T.

[hopefaithlove]

I'm sorry to hear that the meeting was cancelled. I hope it get rescheduled. You deserve the help, whether you want it or not right now. In a few years down the road, when you're healthy and done with everything, you will look back and be thankful that you took the difficult steps to recovery.