Triggering (ED): riding the food rollercoaster

nocontrol5 · **riding the food rollercoaster -** October 4th 2009, 02:42 AM

I really do not like this rollercoaster. one day im fine and dandy, controling my urges to binge and then purge, other days tho, it feels like i have to! every bone in my body urging me to eat everything in sight! then i have to throw it up because my stomach is aching and my mind is racing with thoughts about my weight and appearance..i just recently did this..about 2 hours ago, i feel horribel. i was doing so good to. but i weighed myself an hour ago and i have gained weight because i havent been throwing up as much, it makes me want to do it even more, i just want to be skinny!! but i hate making myself puke. why cant i be normal and eat normally?

Lil · **Re: riding the food rollercoaster -** October 4th 2009, 05:28 PM

hey, doing this kind of thing is hell for your body,throwing up will not help you lose weight,in fact it can make you gain weight sometimes,i know you may feel like you have to but this is not the right way to go,there plently of healthy ways to lose weight.if you feel the urge to do this kind of thing but dont want to i find sometimes the self harm alternatives are helpful.It is possible to eat normally again,you can do it.
If you ever need to talk to someone you can pm me anytime <3

firecracker · **Re: riding the food rollercoaster -** October 4th 2009, 06:48 PM

Hi Bell.
I'm sorry to hear things are going bad. Eating disorders are awful and they never make anyone feel better. It's a tough thing to do, but the best idea is to tell someone what is going on. A parent, teacher, or your school nurse. Binging and purging can have a lot of nasty side effects, and you shouldn't have to go through this. Recovery isn't easy, but it's worth it.

Through-Glass · **Re: riding the food rollercoaster -** October 4th 2009, 11:50 PM

Bell,

First of all, I want to say that it is so GREAT that you decided to reach out here for help. Suffering in silence is hell for anyone, and does absolutely no good at all. It's fantastic that you decided to seek support. Good job.

What you are doing is extremely unhealthy, as Lil said, it is hell for your body. It is very important that you seek help elsewhere, as well; talk to a close friend, a parent, or a doctor. Talk to someone who can get you help; you deserve to get help for this, deserve to feel better. I know that the idea of talking to someone about these issues may be so scary, but I promise, it will be well worth it in the long run.

In the mean time, what else could you do when you have the urge to binge and purge? How could you occupy yourself in a healthy manner? It's important that you ffind healthy coping methods and ways to avoid unhealthy ones. Your alternatives could be any number of things; anything from coloring to going for a walk, taking a long bath, or watching your favorite movie. Do what makes you feel happy and taken care of, because it is SO important that we take care of ourselves, even when these negative feelings attempt to overwhelm us. I know you have the strength to do this.

If you'd ever like to talk, I'm more than happy to listen.

Just shoot me a PM and I'll reply as soon as possible. Take care, Bell.