My head is about to explode...

[mysticr]

Hi.... so I've had anorexia, bulimia, depression and self harmed before. Two hospital admissions in the last 18 months, the first for anorexia, the second for depression. I feel like I'm slipping again, to be honest. I've got into a habit of eating loads for a day or so, then eating nothing for a few days. I've done it before, but not to the same extent. Usually I clearly identify with anorexia or bulimia, although i think this is a type of bulimia, correct me if i'm wrong. My boyfriend wants me to see a psychologist, I think I do too. I've had five over the past two years, only one has been any good, who I have been able to open up to. I don't want to be trapped in therapy sessions with someone I don't click with, if you get what I mean. I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm ok and just over reacting to something stupid. Probably, my parents sometimes tell me I'm attention seeking, and my younger sister tells me that all the time.

[Jen]

Hey Rachel,

It's a great idea to see out a type of therapy or psychiatry. I'm glad you have your boyfriend to support you. It's true that sometimes you might not click with the person you're seeing. It can take a few tries to find that person who you "click" with--but it's doable. And the good news is that YOU are in charge of your therapy sessions. So if you don't like what you're talking about, if you don't like the person, YOU are in control to say "stop" and switch topics, try someone else, etc. It's worth a shot--I definitely encourage it! Maybe your boyfriend can help you out with finding someone?

Take good care of yourself-
<3

[love__me]

Rachel,

I'm really sorry to hear that you are falling back into the battle of ED. I think its a great idea to begin therapy. and like Jen said, you can control what you talk about, and who you see. If you ever need anything at all, feel free to PM me.

[Ryan1]

Hi Rachel – you’ve got a beautiful name.

You seem to want to help yourself which is good you need to come to an agreement with yourself that you’ll eat and exercise normally, its extremely hard for me to give one peace of advise to you, when your suffering from a much lager issue then what I can do for you over the site.

I believe you should seek medical help. The best I can do is be here to support you, if you want someone to talk with feel free to Pm me.

[Casey.]

Hey Rachel,

I'm sorry to hear that you are falling back into disordered behaviour. I am glad that you decided to try therapy again. Five in two years isn't actually that bad. I had around nine or ten in three years, so I can relate to the starting over and not clicking. If you don't like a therapist, you can always request another. Or you could even try a different type of therapy, like using a sand tray, or art therapy.

If you need anything, feel free to pm me.

[mysticr]

Thank you for your posts everyone, they've been really helpful. I just don't know how to get back into therapy, or how to request a different psychologist. Any advice? Thanks so much xx