Relapsed

[lost_chil]

On another note... While I was at the psychiatric ward for my attempt... I also relapsed on my ED...

I'm not really sure what to call myself though... Anorexic? Bulemic?

I starve myself almost daily. I have a meal or two a day, and almost no snacks in between. Skip lunch, ussually. I'm not a vegetarian because meat was repulsive and made me sick if I ate it and everything.

When I say made me sick, I mean I felt horrible after eating it, and purged. I stopped eating meat and chicken, etc, over 6 months ago, and started eating more nsacks, and then was BARELY on 3 meals a day...

I relapsed at the hospital though... I ate, felt disgusting, terrible, faat, etc. And just purged...

But what I don't understand is, I either starve myself, or binged, then purge...

I have asked to see a specialist but no one believes me. I have no idea what I have, but I know it's an eating dissorder. But which? Anyone able to realte?

Thanks.
-Alice-

[Jen]

Hey Alice,

You definitely are experiencing some pretty unhealthy behaviors with food. It doesn't sound like your symptoms fit neatly into one of the ED titles, but that's okay--most people with EDs don't fit neatly in, either. Symptoms are messy and can cover a range of things. The reason you are binging and purging is because your body has been starved. It needs food regularly, so if you're not giving the food to it, it's going to try to make up for what it lost--and that's where the binge comes in. Then, you panic, and purge. Try eating regular meals, frequently, and you will find the binging/purging will decrease.

Keep asking until someone listens to you about seeing a specialist. Are you seeing any doctors at all right now? Let them know that this is a big problem for you at the moment and you need help for it before you end up back in the hospital. Keep reaching out--someone will listen.

Our bodies need food; that's the bottom line. You need to take care of your body and feed it regularly. If you eat normal-sized meals and get moderate exercise, your body will be at a healthy weight. You can trust yourself and your body.

Good luck to you--take care!
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[lost_chil]

If it was really that easy I would be doing it... I just can't, I can't eat anymore then a meal or two a day, with minimal snacks. I don't know why. I have also tried talking to my doctor and she doesn't think it's an issue. I honestly give up about it though. Whats the worse that can happen? I'll be fine, but I just wanted to try one last time

[an_revival]

"What's the worst that could happen?"

You can die!

Please try again, don't ever give up!!!!!!!!!!!!! Talk to your school counselor, youth paster if you have one, doctor again, parents, someone!

You don't deserve to go through this, no one does.

[Sarah1325]

as being bulimic for 3 years and still struggling. it sounds to me as if you are EDNOS eating disoder not otherwise specified.
which can mean you are a combination of different types of eating disorders.
def seek a counselor because it will never just go away on its own and talking about it really does help.