I Don't Know What To Do

[Marshmello Kid]

I've been eating more. . . I've gained some weight, I'm up to xxx. It's driving me crazy, I hate it, it's making me miserable. I'm not getting enough sleep and I'm doing track and feild at school. The whole reason I started doing track and feild was to lose weight. Since I've started I've gained xlbs.

I don't know what to do, I was trying to eat more and get healthy, and it made me misserable. I was eating 2 meals a day and a few snacks, and I didn't mind. Now I've gained weight.

I have no idea what to do, I've been working out and eating healthy, I should be losing weight. . . I spoke to my friend about it, she said I shouldn't be upset, and that I have a great body so many people are jealous of and that all the weight is muscle mass. But I know it's not, my pants are tighter.

I'm so tempted to purge, and I'm starting to eat less. I don't know what to do. I was happy, I could look in the mirror and be okay with my body enough to eat x calories a day, even go over sometimes. But now I'm just driving myself crazy, my confidence is gone, I hate seeing myself. It's horrible.

I have no idea what to do . . . I'm going to keep trying to eat healthy, but it's hard.

I just don't know what to do to feel okay again.

[Casey.]

Hey Reid,

It's good to hear that you are eating better. I'm so proud of you. So, you may be gaining weight, however, since you are working out and eating healthy, it's more than likely muscle, and muscle will make your pants feel tighter. You got to keep doing what you are doing, don't slip back into not eating Reid. You can do this, and one day you will be able to feel okay with your body again.

If you need anything, feel free to pm me.

[Marshmello Kid]

Thanks Casey, I appretiate your input. I'm trying to stay healthy, it's just really hard. I keep binging, then starving to make up for it. I know it's not healthy, and I know I need to stop, but it's so hard and I can't get it out of my head that I need to be better. Especialy since it's almost bathingsuite season. . . Ugh, I'm just not doing well right now.

I'll keep inmind that I can PM you, thanks.