Here we go again

[Sin]

Im struggling with food again. Its been a long time since I couldnt/wouldnt eat. But I am struggling now. It took me ages to get my ed under control but when i did i started cutting. So what was the point? My gf got a new job which means shes gonna be travelling alot..which means il be eating alone. Which i havent been doing. And now my gf is gonna tell my physc that shes not always gonna be here at night so she's going to freak out.

Last week i was in a physc hosp but decided to leave. Now im off my meds feeling like shit and i cant make myself eat. Its just too damn hard. I cant believe im going down this road again. I feel ugly and fat

[sirjan xerdaj]

Your friend Sirjan use to struggle with ED's too, still kinda do, I realized like everything else in life, you're the only person who knows what you want Umm...that doesn't make sense. But here's some self help tactic I invented to get over the 'meat' of the issue... Get use to taking pictures of yourself. If you aren't satisfied with that picture take another picture and another AND ANOTHER! Until you're happy. If you think you're soooo fat take pictures of your stomach until you take one that you like. The reality from those pictures will hit you hard when you look at the damage you're doing to your body. Then flush that blade down the toilet, blast music and if you want, cry to feel better of course.