I am starting to become obsessed with my weight and figure again. I think it is because it is summer. I want to go on an all water diet but when I get home, all I see is food food food and I can't control myself! I eat mindlessly! I am not even hungry when I do it. For the past 4 weeks I have been doing this. I end up binging every time, and 2/3 of the time I purge. I just want to be skinny. I look at myself and cry. I hate that I am doing this, but I hate how I look more. what can I do??
but these are days we dream about
when the sunlight paints us gold
and this apartment could not be prettier
as we danced up there alone..
the same thing happens to me in the summer so don't feel bad. I know what its like, the pressure to look good in a bikini and such. What I have to do is make a list of all the good things about myself and tape it to my mirror. That way when you wake up in the morning, you will see those things and focus less on the bad.
You ARE beautiful no matter what you say
have an amazing day
You are not alone I know how this feels, but remember that you are beautiful and remind yourself of that daily. It's hard to struggle with weight and want to be thin, but it is not the most important part of who you are. I know how important you feel it is, because of how many people make us feel like we have to be extremely thin to be beautiful, but just know that is not the case. If you ever just want to talk about it and get support from me you are more than welcome to PM me. Also, if there is someone you can talk to this about before the obsession gets worse I highly suggest doing that as well. The best way to fight this and try and stop is through support and seeking help. Just know I am always here for you and please do stay strong.
Remember that your body needs food, calories, and nutrients, in order to function. So when you deprive it of food, it freaks out, and eventually begs you to "make up for" all of the food that you didn't give it, which is why you binge. If you eat small, frequent, caloric and nutritious meals/snacks, your body won't get the urge to binge as much, because it will be calm and know that it will get more food in just a little while. Does that make sense?
Have you talked to anyone about how you feel about food and your body? If not, I really want to encourage you to do so--having support is so important.
Take good care of your beautiful self.
"Do not ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
I'm also going through thiss although I dont feel very happy with my own body, I want you to know that you are beautiful no matter what size you are. I'm sure other people think that to! Don't let yourself tell you that you're not good enough. I know what it's like to want to cry everytime I look in the mirror (I have 4 full length mirrors in my room which doesnt really help). I know what it's like to feel uncomfortable in your own body. But if you try to lose weight in a better, more healthy way then you will probably end up losing even more weight. but don't lose too much, you're beautiful whatever the scales say.
♥ Your heart's tangled up in silence,
It's time to let go,
Feel the light,
I know it's easier to hide,
But you gotta let go,
Feel the light,
Let go and feel the light. ♥