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Having problems again. What to do? - August 6th 2010, 12:10 PM

So at the end of 2006, I developed mild anorexia that eventually turned into reallt bad bulimia. In the beginning of 2009, my boyfriend--who was then anorexic--moved in and we started to help each other heal. For a little over a year I've been completely ED free (well, I was maybe a little obsessive over what I ate, but I did eat and not throw it up.)

Then three weeks ago my bf and I went on break, and all of a sudden I was back to square one. For the first couple of days I thought it was just a normal reaction to what had happened, but it's not. I've eaten six meals, tops, in the last three weeks. I'm tired all the time again, having random pains again, getting dizzy again, bruising too easily again . . . you know, all those lovely little side effects.

This needs to stop, and it needs to stop now. I keep telling myself that I will eat but I just don't. I got through this once, and I feel so stupid for getting sucked back into it. I know how awful this is, and I don't want to go through it again. The problem is that the irrational side of me doesn't seem to want to listen to the rational side. What to do?


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Re: Having problems again. What to do? - August 7th 2010, 05:53 AM

Hey there,

The thing about break ups, or even about taking a break from a relationship, is that the usually leave us at a point where we slip right back into old habits, because there is nothing else for us to hold on to. What you got to realize, and to keep telling yourself, is that you can do this without him, you can keep heading on the path of recovery. Don't just keep telling yourself you will eat, actually eat. If you have to force yourself to have a meal, then do so. Put a reminder on your phone to go off during the day to tell you to eat something, and if possible stop and eat. You can do this, just hang in there.


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Re: Having problems again. What to do? - August 8th 2010, 02:44 AM

The frsutrating thing is that I wasn't on a path to recovery. I was recovered fully. Or so I thought.


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Re: Having problems again. What to do? - August 8th 2010, 03:45 AM

Even if you were fully recovered, it didn't mean you couldn't slip. A lot of people who are recovered slip. I know I did, and I know a lot of my friends have. Slipping is easy, it's the getting back up that's hard. I call it a path for a reason, in my mind there is always a chance you can slip, and you will always have to keep going, keep working on eating and being better, that to me it is a path, a long path that you might stray from but one that you can always get back on. You just have to step back on the path, but it's not easy.

Hang in there, and don't hesitate to PM me if you need anything.


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Re: Having problems again. What to do? - August 8th 2010, 04:36 AM

I know how totally frustrating it is when we are doing so well, and then we slip. I wasn't fully recovered, I had gained no weight, but mentally I was so much better, I ate what I wanted (which just obviously wasnt enough) but I could eat out with mates, I got everything back into my diet, if someone offered me chocolate i'd TAKE IT! I just enjoyed food and I thought I was so going to beat this. Then, a friend developed an eating disorder, and I am convinced its all my fault, I became all worried and BOOM, I started weighing myself again, checking calories, and I found myself eating hardly anything. I wasnt getting the "im so fat I dont deserve food" thoughts though, it was more like I just didnt want the food and could not ever be bothered getting any. Now, I am still in the same place, I will eat stuff though, but I do contemplate everything I eat which is so frustrating. I was doing so well!
Basically what I am saying is that we can feel like we will never ever get an ED again, but sometimes we do slip up, and we can only be strong to beat it again. Your certainly not the only one that has relapsed Hope you can get better!
   
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