nobody knows this (this could be triggering.. i'm not sure..?)

[callmesunny]

Okay so, I've always been skinny, really skinny.
Lately, I've been gaining a little bit of weight, and i know its not much, but i am so not used to it and i don't like it at all.
I feel like my stomach always looks really pudgy, and my thighs are starting to get big.
I feel like such a jerk saying this, when I tell everyone around me to embrace their real beauty and that they don't need to be skinny to be beautiful, when secretly I want to get plastic surgery and I just won't eat some days because i think "maybe it will help a little bit."
going on an eating disorder would be absolutely against everything i stand for and every moral i have, but its a huge temptation for me to just not eat for a while... see what happens.
its like playing with fire... i know i shouldn't do it, but i'm just dying to see what could happen...

I haven't ever had an eating disorder, and I feel like such a pig because all the food we have in our house is pretty much junk food, and if it's not junk food its something i dont like. i feel like its a joke, even to myself, but i'm just starting to get insecure with not being tiny anymore. UGH i sound like a whiny jerk! i hate that! ): help me out..

[LeahLouise]

For one you can't "go on an eating disorder"
Eating Disorders are Mental Disorders.
Basically, if you don't have one, you can't give yourself one.

If you think you could be developing an Eating Disorder than go visit your doctor...
It's better than having to try and recover from an Eating Disorder in a few years time...
And even then, not everyone recovers.

[Helen...]

Hey there.

Firstly, I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this way. You shouldn't need to, I'm sure you're perfectly fine as you are.
It's entirely natural to start putting weight on- there's nothing wrong with it in the slightest.
As you keep telling other people, embrace your beauty 'cause no matter what you think it's there.
If you really feel as though you need to lose some weight though there are so much better ways to do so than stopping eating or undergoing surgery. You could try to go on a diet or do reguler excercise or something along those lines. Make sure you get hold of healthy foods and eat that instead of all the junk food you feel obliged to eat. You'll find something that works for you I'm sure.
and if you still feel you need to have surgery find a really good surgeon that is highly skilled in whatever surgery you want and go to him. Yeah it'll cost a lot more but it's got to be better than having to deal with whatever complications you'll end up with if you get it done cheap.

Take care of yourself and there'll always be someone on here willing to help you when you need it.
- Helen. x

[emma01]

I just want to say that you cant "Go on an eating disorder" Having an eating disorder is not a choice, you either get one or you do not.

If you feel your gaining weight and you are uncomfortable, then just try and eat healthy and exercise. I notice you are 17, thats old enough to stand up for yourself and tell your parents that you dont want junk food all the time, you can go out and buy your own food. Getting an ED will honestly screw your life up, and while you can recover, it will always be there behind you.

[BECCALICIOUS!]

Hey there.
I've been having a similar problem. I've always been known as the skinny girl and lately I've gained a few pounds and I've been hating it.
Some things I've been doing are cutting junk food out, replacing all of my drinks with water, and getting at least an hour of exercise a day, even if it's just walking. So far it's been helping.
I also make up a shopping list for my mom so that way she knows the things I like and that she should buy.