I hate myself when I binge...

[XbeyondthisworldX]

I just binged majorly, I had a Klondike Bar, a peice of chocolate cake with villia icing, a Special K bar and a Diet Pepsi(and I could have been satisfied with like few carrots...) IDK what to do. I hate myself right now. I feel like my stomach is about to explode... I can't purge... I just feel so guitly. I should have just stopped eating, but I didn't. I wish I lived alone so I could purge.... I know it's wrong, but it's all I want to do... I'd hate myself a little less right now if I could do it... UGHHHHH. Wtf is wrong with me?!

[Jen]

Megan,

Hating yourself is not going to accomplish anything. It'll just set you up to binge again, because binging is an emotional response to a situation. So, allow yourself compassion; know that you slipped, you made a mistake, and you can use that situation to help future situations.

If you do a search in this forum, you'll find many threads about binging, and ways to stop a binge. I'd really recommend you looking through some of them; they're full of good tips, and might help you feel less awful and less alone.

You are not a bad person, and I believe that you can get through this.
Take good care of yourself.

[XbeyondthisworldX]

Thank you! I got through last night without purging, which is really good, and I managed to fall asleep(which is really hard on nights when I binge without purging, becuase of the guilt of binging) I know I SHOULDN'T hate myself after binging, but sometimes, I just do. Thanks for the response though!

[Mikey]

This thread brought tears to my eyes (aha) just because I have been in that position, way to many times.
If you step out of your ed box, and look at this situation in a normal person's perspective, you'd think that those four items, although not the healthiest, aren't alot of food.
You need to realize that these negative thoughts and feelings are taking a huge toll on your happiness, and it's your choice to pull yourself out of this so you can enjoy those sweet treats without the grudging regret.
And about purging, it's so dangerous and unhealthy, I'm glad you don't get alot of oppurtunities to purge in your enviornment. Have you tried looking at the Alternative sticky in the SH thread? I know it's for SH, but it could be used for alot of problems, such as curbing the feeling that you had a few nights ago.
I hope everything's going alright and I'm here anytime you need someone to talk too.
Much Love,
Mikey.

[XbeyondthisworldX]

I know what you mean about it nott being a lot of food, but in a small amount of time, it is... And I know purging is bad for me, and I'm glad that I don't get to do it much either(well, at least at night, when I want to).. but it's been over a month!! Yes, I have checked out the sh alternative sticky, many times, because I also sh(I usually want to do both at once, so it does help) Thank you for the advice and the offer.

[aislina]

i know that feeling so well. I try to avoid binging by reminding myself that tomorrow is another day and another chance to get it right. Good luck

[XbeyondthisworldX]

Thank you.

[AmazonQueen]

i also know this feeling all to well your not alone

[XbeyondthisworldX]

Thanks to you too!