In emotional pain an hurt

[Music In My Heart 120]

I don't want to die from my eating disorder I truly don't an scared if
it gets worse I might
i cant even imagine the damage I have done to my body through my self destruction an ed an sh an my body still trying
to work an recover an heal
I can't keep doing this to my body
I just can't it deserves a change to heal an be healthy also work right

but I am loosing hope an strentght to recover ed sooo. Intense feels like I'll never feel or get better

Cryysss I feel sooo depressed an want to sh

[sheissoweird]

You want to recover and that's SO important because when you want something, and want it so bad, you're willing to get nearly everything.
Don't wait for it to be too late, maybe you've hurt, but perhaps you can fix the damage, work for it, as you said your body deserves it.
Maybe you could try antidepressants, these helped me a lot when I was in recovery (I mean, to make me feel better) I promise they won't make you hungry or anything.
Have you tried mechanical eating? It's like you have 5-6 small meals a day (even if you're not hungry!) to make sure your body has food. You'll have energy again, and will feel better.
Also, I'd tell you to exercise a bit, not to burn off calories but to enjoy an activity and it's healthy (and helps you to keep fit).
You know you should gain some weight, right? but you can do it the healthy way, it doesn't mean your recovery team is going to make you pig out, there are diets that makes you gain and keep looking slim
It's important to keep yourself entertained after meals to avoid throwing up, talk with your parents, watch TV, surf the internet, whatever!
I know you can do this, and don't sh, it won't solve anything dear
You can always talk to me whenever you need something, or just some support, I'm no longer recovering but I'm pro-recovery.
All the best xx

[Music In My Heart 120]

Hey

Thanks for the kind words an understanding itt helps me feel a bit better an a tinge bit hopeful

yes i'm in consideration for anti depressants an I have done mechanical eating but not really helpful at all to me
but I did feel better
I'm a dancer an excercise alot so I need to cut down on that till body
is healthier in terms of nutrition

Thanks for willling to help me much apperciated

Originally Posted by sheissoweird

You want to recover and that's SO important because when you want something, and want it so bad, you're willing to get nearly everything.
Don't wait for it to be too late, maybe you've hurt, but perhaps you can fix the damage, work for it, as you said your body deserves it.
Maybe you could try antidepressants, these helped me a lot when I was in recovery (I mean, to make me feel better) I promise they woLn't make you hungry or anything.
Have you tried mechanical eating? It's like you have 5-6 small meals a day (even if you're not hungry!) to make sure your body has food. You'll have energy again, and will feel better.
Also, I'd tell you to exercise a bit, not to burn off calories but to enjoy an activity and it's healthy (and helps you to keep fit).
You know you should gain some weight, right? but you can do it the healthy way, it doesn't mean your recovery team is going to make you pig out, there are diets that makes you gain and keep looking slim
It's important to keep yourself entertained after meals to avoid throwing up, talk with your parents, watch TV, surf the internet, whatever!
I know you can do this, and don't sh, it won't solve anything dear
You can always talk to me whenever you need something, or just some support, I'm no longer recovering but I'm pro-recovery.
All the best xx

[Music In My Heart 120]

I want to purge now an will soon

[*weepingstar*]

hon please dont do this. you stronger than this. i know you are.

[Music In My Heart 120]

MI'M not strong enough an to hard of a urge

[*weepingstar*]

you are strong enough. youve done much harder things. dont give in2 it. youve come so far. dont go back

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'm goin to prge now

[*weepingstar*]

[Music In My Heart 120]

What?????!!'

[*weepingstar*]

you know your stronger than this. we both do. if you really want a way out, youll find it. youve done such a great job and come so far!! dont give it up like this....

[Music In My Heart 120]

I feel so fat an obese n tummmy hurts I look huge in mirror

[*weepingstar*]

you ARE NOT FAT. i promise. you are anything but!!! what have u eaten/kept down today?

[Music In My Heart 120]

Half of a chicken sandwhich an small amount of soup that's all I ate
I did not purge today yet

[*weepingstar*]

thats not enough to do anything. anything. the soup will run right through you, the sandwich will sustain you if you let it. itll b enough to support your body. but not enough that theres gonna b anything left over 2 store as fat.

[Music In My Heart 120]

If excercising is considered a purging method then I purged two times by excercise

[*weepingstar*]

not quite the same. in excessive amounts it can be bad. but if you have exercised you really really need to keep whatevers n you there, youve prob already worked most of it off, but anything thats left your body could really use

[Music In My Heart 120]

There is nothing for body to use now since I overexcercised it of

[*weepingstar*]

well then why do u want to perge if theres nothing there?

[Music In My Heart 120]

So after I can binge then purge

[*weepingstar*]

please dont. it wont help you and its gonna farther mess up your teeth and tick off the team

[Music In My Heart 120]

Ok I won't


I'm dizzzzy now an feel weak

[Music In My Heart 120]

plan for if things get worse for me and tips to help you help me:

• don't try to guilt me into eating.
• be patient with me .
• be careful not to trigger me with weight talk .
• dont talk about cals to me ,say no i dont want to talk about that if i bring cals up.
• ask me if you are unsure of what to say or what suggestions you could make on food to eat that ill be ok with and wont get trggered by eating it as much.
• when trying to persuade me to eat dont let me telll you otherwise or manupliate or control.
• after eating and im complaining about urges do try to distract me by moving on to another topic or saying i dont think that talking about the urges will hlp you get better,etc.
• when im wanting to badly self harm give me some suggestionson stuff to do instead or say i would like you to stay safe so please remove the thing you would plan on using to si away from you or at least hide it so you wont be tempted.

[Music In My Heart 120]

plan for if things get worse for me and tips to help you help me:

• don't try to guilt me into eating.
• be patient with me .
• be careful not to trigger me with weight talk .
• dont talk about cals to me ,say no i dont want to talk about that if i bring cals up.
• ask me if you are unsure of what to say or what suggestions you could make on food to eat that ill be ok with and wont get trggered by eating it as much.
• when trying to persuade me to eat dont let me telll you otherwise or manupliate or control.
• after eating and im complaining about urges do try to distract me by moving on to another topic or saying i dont think that talking about the urges will hlp you get better,etc.
• when im wanting to badly self harm give me some suggestionson stuff to do instead or say i would like you to stay safe so please remove the thing you would plan on using to si away from you or at least hide it so you wont be tempted.

[Music In My Heart 120]

[b]]Arrggghh I just ate and feel so guilty //// I did Not purge dinner


bad an guilty I ate
an my parents were watching me eat that made it very
awkard an hard


I just want to throw up right now all I ate
it make me feel better
I need to throw up to loose weight

[Music In My Heart 120]

Sometimes I get chest pains an heart beating fast sometimes to
and I get scared when I shake even when not cold
anyone who could help me figure it out please do so !!!! Thanks


I'll be ok physically once I start eating healthy an let body use nutrition an I rest a doc said a long time ago

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'm a lil drunk
and how can I be un drunk?

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'm not drunk any more
I m not a drinker
I won't drink anymore i promise

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'm goin to start purging please don't be mad

why I am -
lost hope of recovery
stress
worried bout future
tummy sticks out
and I'm worthless

[emma01]

You shouldn't start purging.

Why you shouldnt
-It damages your throat
-It damages your oesophagus [sp?]
-It drains your body of potassium
-It does not help you to lose weight
-It is an addiction
-Your body will begin to think that as soon as food goes in, it needs to come out and when you do try eat normally you will vomit unintentionally
-You will be in extreme pain sometimes
-Your family and people who care about you will be so scared

NOT TO MENTION THE MENTAL MISERY THAT ACCOMPANIES PURGING!!!
There are so many reasons why you shouldnt, it is so not good for you and there are much better, more effective ways to lose weight other than this. Please do not do this you will regret it forever!

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'll try to not purge

[Music In My Heart 120]

Tryin to up my intake an not purge

[Music In My Heart 120]

I hardely eat lately

[Music In My Heart 120]

Ill do my best to eat twice a day and have snacks

[Music In My Heart 120]

I would like to have this thread closed

[Jen]

Closed at the OP's request.