Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Dont know what to do about this... :/

[Jar Of Lemons]

Hey,

I have had quite a few problems with eating lately, and am stuck on what to do.

I hardly feel hungry, and I just avoid food. I keep on saying to myself that ''food is evil'' and thats why I should avoid it. I also feel very sick if I do eat, and occassionally feel weak, if I eat or if I dont. Im loosing weight quite slowly...but I know im definatly losing it. Im in a hard situation at the moment as I wont tell no one about it because I have already hurt my family enough, with the big issue I have caused a few weeks back now. My friends are not being supportive, tbh they never have been. In previous cases where I have felt the same as I do now they said that they wouldnt want to know me if I did have an eating problem. And They dont respect me at all, they just say that I want to turn into an 'anorexic fucking twat', it pisses me off. I feel like they're fucking blaming me. Its not my fault though, Why cant they see that?

I really dont know what to do, and I am scared of going to the doctors because of what they would do to me (Phobia) and even telling anyone about it because of what they'd think of me, and how nasty they would be to me. My family...they're pretty much destroyed bout what I did a few weeks ago.

Im so confused and upset, Im really unsure on what to do about it no more. Its not my fault thou.

Any advice is welcomed. (sorry about my rant btw!)

[Casey.]

I must ask, whose fault is it that you have eating issues? Yeah, some of it is a mental disorder, or even a cultural thing. But no one makes you not eat. I'm not trying to be rude, or harsh here, but before you can get better, you have to realize that you are the one doing this to yourself.

I know you may not feel hungry, but you need to try to make yourself eat three to six small meals a day. Doing that and exercising will help keep you healthy and will get you on a better track.Also, you may want to rethink your choices of friends. They don't sound like real friends to me, and I'm sure you could probably find friends who do care about you.

Since you live in the U.K., can you talk to childline or CAMHS? They can help you through this, and there is nothing to be afraid of. Reach out to someone, you don't have to do this alone. Just hang in there.

[Mikey]

Hey; I'm sorry that you are in this situation. But don't ever feel like your alone. There are people, including myself, that are more than willing to help you through this.
Is there any other trusted adults that you could talk to about how your feeling?
Like a trusted aunt/uncle, teacher, ect.
Not eating can cause alot of damage, emotionally and physically. I hope you understand this and try to overcome this developing eating disorder.
Please please please, PM me anytime you feel like talking to someone.
-Much Love, Mikey.