don't know if i can do this

actingpassion123 · **don't know if i can do this -** November 16th 2010, 02:07 PM

i've been working really hard on recovery, but for this past week i've been restricting. i just feel so awful about myself every time i eat, that i don't think it's worth it. i'm not even underweight at the moment. maybe if i was i'd be more invested in recovery...i just don't think i can keep doing this. but i can't say that to anyone b/c they would be so dissappointed

another thing that i haven't really told anyone about..
i have a website, and i'm friends with people who have EDs, only they're not in recovery. it's not "pro-ana", b/c we hate ED, but we support each other, not really in healthy ways. i feel like i should get off this site, but they need my support and i need theirs. do u think i should get off of it?

emma01 · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 16th 2010, 11:29 PM

Hey, don't worry too much if you feel like you are going backwards, many people in recovery will tell you they have relapsed, either just with their thinking, or even a full blown relapse. Just keep trying as hard as you can and you can beat this!

That website you go on is really not good. To me it sounds like all they are doing is encouraging you to stop eating, and that is not support whatsoever. I think you know you should not be on it.

Love.Peace.Happiness · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 16th 2010, 11:40 PM

Hi,
Well im not very skinny and im really bad at sports lol!
If you feel like you still need help I would go on another site...
Hope this helped!
(>-)

actingpassion123 · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 17th 2010, 12:32 AM

thank you both.

you're right emma, i know i should. i guess i just needed to hear it from someone else.

how to get back on the track to recovery? a small fall feels huge in my eyes

emma01 · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 17th 2010, 03:51 AM

"a small fall feels huge in my eyes"

I totally totally agree. It feels like you can never get back up! But you can! I think everyone finds it different, but do you know what urged me to recover? Well I was watching old videos of myself, and looking at old pictures, and I was so happy back then it made me happy to see that, and overall my mood just lifted, and I kept thinking back to how I was and that really got me going.
Also, are you seeing a doctor or a professional regularly? Because they always threaten me with hospital (and no, not an empty thread, I could actually be there right now) and because I really dont want to go, that really urged me to keep trying, and because I get weighed weekly, that also makes me keep going. Maybe you do need someone else on your case, if you get what I mean. I get blood tests weekly, get weighed weekly, get ECGs (heart monitoring crap) monthly and see a dietician monthly, to be honest i HATE it, but it does keep me going.

Unicorn ♥✿ · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 17th 2010, 11:53 AM

You hang in there!

actingpassion123 · **Re: don't know if i can do this -** November 17th 2010, 12:27 PM

i'll definitely try that. i am seeing a nutritionist, a therapist, and am in group therapy weekly, a psychiatrist every once in awhile, and a medical doc every now and then. i just really want to do it for myself this time, because last time i just got better for my doctors and family, and it just came right back. i'll keep trying to follow their plans

thank you for all of your support

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Love.Peace.Happiness Offline Just a taco with a mustache <3 Average Joe *** Name: Sabreena Gender: I'm a LADY. Location: Skyscrapin' With Demi. Posts: 155 Join Date: November 16th 2010	Re: don't know if i can do this - November 16th 2010, 11:40 PM Hi, Well im not very skinny and im really bad at sports lol! If you feel like you still need help I would go on another site... Hope this helped! (>-)

actingpassion123 Offline Member Average Joe *** Name: Laura Age: 20 Gender: Female Posts: 178 Join Date: May 11th 2010	Re: don't know if i can do this - November 17th 2010, 12:32 AM thank you both. you're right emma, i know i should. i guess i just needed to hear it from someone else. how to get back on the track to recovery? a small fall feels huge in my eyes

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