Triggering: binge eating

[Nomatophobia]

So, yeah, I have this near-psychotic obsession with food. I have to eat, practically every minute, in every hour of the day. Sometimes I go without food for at least three-quarters a day, then I just fill my stomach right up.

A lot of time, I end up vomiting (not bulimia) because I ate more than my stomach could take. But I still continue to eat. I've remained within the same weight range, in the 130s. Its mostly on the higher end and has rarely gone over 140.

Everyone says I am skinny though, and I have to think "seriously"?! Because I look down at my stomach, it looks like I'm pregnant. I've been like this for six years and the timing is no conicidence with the beginning of my depression. However, I'm done the second part, now just to work on the first part. :/

What do I do? My mom's always storing food in my fridge. I'm going to have a crapload when I return over the weekend with the Thanksgiving leftovers and I already have plenty of frozen and canned food as it is. And sweets, like a pound of various sweets. :/

I want to stop eating so much, and I want to be back in size six pants.

[Marshmellow]

You could do what my former roommate did and buy these "Full Bars." They're only to be eaten before you eat a meal. You eat them, then you feel full, and you don't want to anymore. That's what I've heard. They're also not very appetizing, so I've heard.

The best way to avoid eating is to go out away from food. If you're not home, and you don't have any money with you (or you're not willing to spend that money), then you can't eat.

When I go home I'm more likely to 'eat' than when I'm on campus. On campus. I realize that the food I have is a limited supply. Then when I come home it's like the food is unlimited. The refrigerator seems to "refill" itself. With the holiday season arising it's hard stick to any diet. Eat what you want, but eat it in small portions. That's what my mom always says, but she's one to talk because she's the pro at overeating.

I would start with telling your mom to stop putting food in your refrigerator. I'm taking this off the "Anti-Procrastination Plan" we discussed in one of my class, but, "Tell Everyone." Announce to the world your plans, especially your family. Announce you're going to start eating healthy and in portioned amounts. Tell your mom if she's going to put food in your refrigerator, that she needs to put HEALTHY food in your refrigerator, not unhealthy garbage.

If you must be chewing something at all times, I would recommend celery. Plain celery is actually has negative calories because it takes more energy to chew it than what is in it.