Panic and nervous can't calm so nervous and so dizzy and feel week need advice to calm down. to

[Music In My Heart 120]

I am freaking out about eating at all and can't handle eating solid foods
I'm so underweight but feel huge and obese as ever I need to loose weight

I feel like giving up and letting Ed take it's toll
I can't keep fighting any longer

I'm so weak and dizzy alot

[hannahgreenwood]

I think you may have an eating disorder...if you are underweight yet feel the need to lose more weight than you have some odd projection of yourself that is not real. I think you need to go to counselor for help and what really really helps if you honestly want to recover from all of this and counter all the anorexia is to see a nutritionist and WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING YOU EAT!! now because you are barely able to eat i would stick to yogurts, milks, power drinks if possible, power shakes, juices, and other things that can nourish you...after you are able to properly digest those and gain some pounds you should be able to squeeze in a couple of solid foods a week...maybe three solid foods a week or something...just remember to BREATHE and TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME! if you eat too much at once your body might regurgitate the food and that would make things worse for you...you should try to keep track of what you eat and how often you eat..that way you can reassure yourself that you have eaten and you will not pass out!

[Music In My Heart 120]

I do have an eating disorder
And in outpatient treatment now and only 6 month limit then insurance won't cover anymore .

An Ill try to do my best to recover and I'm really really underweight an my doctor worried so she wants me to have a complete physical next month and to come in once a month to have my weight checked and my health ...

I cant eat anything solid or I feel sick

Originally Posted by hannahgreenwood

I think you may have an eating disorder...if you are underweight yet feel the need to lose more weight than you have some odd projection of yourself that is not real. I think you need to go to counselor for help and what really really helps if you honestly want to recover from all of this and counter all the anorexia is to see a nutritionist and WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING YOU EAT!! now because you are barely able to eat i would stick to yogurts, milks, power drinks if possible, power shakes, juices, and other things that can nourish you...after you are able to properly digest those and gain some pounds you should be able to squeeze in a couple of solid foods a week...maybe three solid foods a week or something...just remember to BREATHE and TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME! if you eat too much at once your body might regurgitate the food and that would make things worse for you...you should try to keep track of what you eat and how often you eat..that way you can reassure yourself that you have eaten and you will not pass out!

[RunningWild]

Sweetheart, I think you may want to be reevaluated by a doctor. If you are seriously underweight, you are putting your life at risk and may need to receive inpatient care.

However, you must not give up on yourself. Because ED has no right to take your life over and so many people need you to be alright. I don't think that waiting a month is acceptable.

I've been through this before and time is really of the essence. If you need to talk, I'm all ears.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Well I got a quick check over on Mon the 20 th done by my doctor because I needed a doctors statement fir work .
And my doctor had bloodwork done for me and I hear next week the results next week of the bloodwork so nervous

Originally Posted by Mirage

Sweetheart, I think you may want to be reevaluated by a doctor. If you are seriously underweight, you are putting your life at risk and may need to receive[/color] inpatient care.

However, you must not give up on yourself. Because ED has no right to take your life over and so many people need you to be alright. I don't think that waiting a month is acceptable.

I've been through this before and time is really of the essence. If you need to talk, I'm all ears.

[RunningWild]

I understand. You must be incredibly nervous and I hope sincerely that nothing is physically wrong with you. Either way, I would suggest more extensive counseling.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by Mirage

I understand. You must be incredibly nervous and I hope sincerely that nothing is physically wrong with you. Either way, I would suggest more extensive counseling.

I agree and possibly inpTient which is being considered for me

Tummy hurts I only ate small amount of of a sandwich and 3 choc. Truffles and a cheeseburger. But I burned it all off fast cause body uses it to power it's mayor functions and to keep me alive an healthy

I want to purge an only drink supplement drinks dizzy now

[PutYourHeartsUp]

Did you really eat all that? I'm so proud of you! You have no idea. That made my (semi bad) night better!
I'm happy to see you trying to beat this.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by TranquilChaos

Did you really eat all that? I'm so proud of you! You have no idea. That made my (semi bad) night better!
I'm happy to see you trying to beat this.

I truly ate that I swear on my heart
Tummy really hurts feels like I have to upchuck
An I'm glad I love to make people happy

[PutYourHeartsUp]

Try not to purge. You're doing SO well! I used to feel sick a lot, and they told me to breathe in my nose like I was sniffing a flower, and then blow out of my mouth like I was blowing out candles. I know putting your wrists on something cool/cold helps a lot too, it's what my friend's brother did when he went through chemo. Maybe you could try that to make your tummy feel better while keeping the food in.

[Music In My Heart 120]

I feel si Dzzy an tummy hurts like crazy but hungry very dizzy an hungry
Body not used to what I ate todayI'm warm all over And feel like I need to upchuck
I'll exceecisr it off

[Music In My Heart 120]

Kept food down and only did a few jumping jacks then resting now trying yo

[hannahgreenwood]

KEEP AT IT GIRL!! FIGHT THE TEMPTATION TO NOT EAT!! GRAB THE CHOCOLATE TRUFFLES AND DOWN THEM!! ohhh..no in fact!! ROB A DONUT STORE OF ALL ITS DONUTS!! ILL BE THE DRIVER!!!

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by hannahgreenwood

KEEP AT IT GIRL!! FIGHT THE TEMPTATION TO NOT EAT!! GRAB THE CHOCOLATE TRUFFLES AND DOWN THEM!! ohhh..no in fact!! ROB A DONUT STORE OF ALL ITS DONUTS!! ILL BE THE DRIVER!!!

Il get huge and second need to watch what I eat
Srry

[Katrina]

Hey there, sweet pea.

Firstly, I just want to say how important it is for you to take an active role in your own physical health. I know it seems as though there's only one goal here, and that you MUST get to whatever that goal may be no matter what the conditions are or how big a toll it takes on your body, but I promise that there's not just one set goal. The goal here, is for you to remain healthy. What happens if you're healthy? You have an improved quality of life. And what happens with an improved quality of life? You're happier... and thus, the cycle continues. However, if you don't step in and intervene right now, its going to be awfully difficult for the cycle to even START! With that said, though, I want to give you a pat on the back for making this thread! Reaching out is certainly never an easy thing to do, and I think there is absolute strength and resilience to be noted within admitting that there's a problem and then working towards steps to try and get that sorted out!

Secondly, let me just say that I'm SO glad you're under the care of a doctor. I will never, EVER discourage seeing a doctor, and I will almost always, in fact, encourage you to keep not only seeing the doctor, but also sharing with her ANY concerns you may have so he or she can work with you to figure out a more healthful plan.

I'd like to move this over to our Eating Disorders forum for a few reasons; I think that you'll be able to get more replies in the forum, and I think that because of the nature of what's going on, I do think much if not all of what you're going through could be targeted by working on your eaing habits and body self-image, and I just think the ED forum is a more appropriate place for this thread, but if you have any questions, feel free to PM me. (:

Take good care of yourself.

[emma01]

I seriously think you need to consider inpatient treatment, does your counsellor know what state you are in. It probably wouldn't harm to print your posts off and show her because outpatient is certainly not helping you in fact i think you have just been getting worse. You know you are doing yourself so much harm and you can't go on like this forever, the longer you muck about the harder it is to recover in the end...and by the looks of it you can't do it yourself.
The medical staff at inpatient clinics know how you feel and they dont stuff you full of junk in fact they may just rely on tube feeding for the first bit...and this just maintains your weight, you dont even need to eat anything. You don't feel full at all. They are professionals and know what you need to eat and how much. You will have your own diet plan which will help you gain weight safely, and the right amount in the right time.

[Music In My Heart 120]

My therapist was looking into inpatient And yes she knows what state I am in

Originally Posted by emma01

I seriously think you need to consider inpatient treatment, does your counsellor know what state you are in. It probably wouldn't harm to print your posts off and show her because outpatient is certainly not helping you in fact i think you have just been getting worse. You know you are doing yourself so much harm and you can't go on like this forever, the longer you muck about the harder it is to recover in the end...and by the looks of it you can't do it yourself.
The medical staff at inpatient clinics know how you feel and they dont stuff you full of junk in fact they may just rely on tube feeding for the first bit...and this just maintains your weight, you dont even need to eat anything. You don't feel full at all. They are professionals and know what you need to eat and how much. You will have your own diet plan which will help you gain weight safely, and the right amount in the right time.

[Music In My Heart 120]

I want to binge and purge

[FlyingTrue]

Please don't. You need to allow yourself to become healthier. You need to make the conscious effort to fight these bad urges. You can do it.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Trying but hard

Have not eaten in awhile so binge eating now and water purge tmrw

[Klynn]

Have you tried eating more balanced food when you try and eat? I know trying to eat when you're suffering from an ED is a major struggle, but if you are eating things that you feel are going to make you fat and are not great for you in general (cheeseburgers and chocolates), it's going to make you want to purge even more than if you had a balanced healthy meal that would nourish your body so much more than chocolates and burgers could ever do.

I would talk to your therapist on how you are feeling and also let her know what you ate and how you felt afterwards...sometimes you just need to find a balance of foods that are healthy and nourishing and ones that make you feel good mentally afterwards as well.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Yes I have done an tried all that but still struggling

Originally Posted by Klynn

Have you tried eating more balanced food when you try and eat? I know trying to eat when you're suffering from an ED is a major struggle, but if you are eating things that you feel are going to make you fat and are not great for you in general (cheeseburgers and chocolates), it's going to make you want to purge even more than if you had a balanced healthy meal that would nourish your body so much more than chocolates and burgers could ever do.

I would talk to your therapist on how you are feeling and also let her know what you ate and how you felt afterwards...sometimes you just need to find a balance of foods that are healthy and nourishing and ones that make you feel good mentally afterwards as well.

[Music In My Heart 120]

I'm so hungry but overexcercising alot lately

[Melody Pond]

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

Work to get feeling better about yourself and do nice things for you and others also your body
And think if your loved one was this way you would of course want to help and make that person feel good by appreciating them and an being loving now apply that to yourself In this situation .

This is what you said to me less than 24 hours ago.
This is great advice.
Why can't you take your own advice and do nice things to your body instead of punishing it?

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by Leikela

This is what you said to me less than 24 hours ago.
This is great advice.
Why can't you take your own advice and do nice things to your body instead of punishing it?

it's harder on the inside and helpful an easy when I'm focused on helping somebody
But the ED won't let me take my own advice it will kill me if I take my own advice


Dzzy and headache now

[Palmolive]

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

it's harder on the inside and helpful an easy when I'm focused on helping somebody
But the ED won't let me take my own advice it will kill me if I take my own advice


Dzzy and headache now

It won't kill you to take your own advice, it will kill you if you carry on losing weight. You clearly want help and have some fight left because you keep coming back and asking for help. Take away what we say and think about it all. Make a plan of what you're going to start doing to help yourself. Things can and will get better.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by Jessie'Lou

It won't kill you to take your own advice, it will kill you if you carry on losing weight. You clearly want help and have some fight left because you keep coming back and asking for help. Take away what we say and think about it all. Make a plan of what you're going to start doing to help yourself. Things can and will get better.

doubtful things will get better for me
Everything is all out of control i guess I could keep fighting and attempting to take my advice

I'll maybe have a wrap an coffee w/ cream and suger
And then maybe read or take a bath

I hate how flabby an pudgy I am

[Music In My Heart 120]

I need to purge noww

[Heartlines.]

Keep fighting, dear. I know how extremely tough it is.
But you are strong. You can overcome this.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by Glitter

Keep fighting, dear. I know how extremely tough it is.
But you are strong. You can overcome this.

Can I just give up please
Much easier then fighting I've had it with my eating disorder
I'm eating pizza now but I'll burn it off

[Heartlines.]

You can do whatever you want.

I would encourage you NOT to do it.
If you keep at the route you are going,
you will end up in inpatient. For months.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by Glitter

You can do whatever you want.

I would encourage you NOT to do it.
If you keep at the route you are going,
you will end up in inpatient. For months.

Yea I was stating not. Asking

My dental team is willing to help me
And maybe with more help I can recover ughhj I'm so big pudgy I need to loose asap

[emma01]

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

Can I just give up please
Much easier then fighting I've had it with my eating disorder
I'm eating pizza now but I'll burn it off

What do you mean by giving up? Do you mean give up struggling and just start eating normally again and go back to normal? Well that wont happen for you overnight if everytime you eat something you have to burn it off. I know your trying but you have to get yourself into a hospital woman!
Or do you mean give up like you want to die? Well that won't accomplish anything as all this time you put so much effort into looking 'good,' but you would be dead and people will only remember you by memories, they won't even see your thin body...and the memories won't be good ones if you carry on like this.

And I dont mean to sound stupid...but if you feel you need to burn pizza off, why dont you eat something that you know is very very healthy for you. Like fruit or veges. I am addicted to grapes and pineapple :P I eat a SHITLOAD of it, I could get through a whole pineapple in one sitting, in fact I have been having a whole one a day...but I don't get fat from it, because its healthy. Whereas if I did that with chocolate I really would feel terrible. I am not encouraging you to eat just fruit, but maybe try have something that you won't feel so obliged to work off. If you can eat fruit and keep the calories in you as opposed to purging or exercising, you will feel so much better.

[Music In My Heart 120]

Giving up on recovery I meant and even if its healthy I freak out about burning it of
I'll keep trying though

Originally Posted by emma01

What do you mean by giving up? Do you mean give up struggling and just start eating normally again and go back to normal? Well that wont happen for you overnight if everytime you eat something you have to burn it off. I know your trying but you have to get yourself into a hospital woman!
Or do you mean give up like you want to die? Well that won't accomplish anything as all this time you put so much effort into looking 'good,' but you would be dead and people will only remember you by memories, they won't even see your thin body...and the memories won't be good ones if you carry on like this.

And I dont mean to sound stupid...but if you feel you need to burn pizza off, why dont you eat something that you know is very very healthy for you. Like fruit or veges. I am addicted to grapes and pineapple :P I eat a SHITLOAD of it, I could get through a whole pineapple in one sitting, in fact I have been having a whole one a day...but I don't get fat from it, because its healthy. Whereas if I did that with chocolate I really would feel terrible. I am not encouraging you to eat just fruit, but maybe try have something that you won't feel so obliged to work off. If you can eat fruit and keep the calories in you as opposed to purging or exercising, you will feel so much better.

[Palmolive]

Originally Posted by emma01

And I dont mean to sound stupid...but if you feel you need to burn pizza off, why dont you eat something that you know is very very healthy for you. Like fruit or veges. I am addicted to grapes and pineapple :P I eat a SHITLOAD of it, I could get through a whole pineapple in one sitting, in fact I have been having a whole one a day...but I don't get fat from it, because its healthy. Whereas if I did that with chocolate I really would feel terrible. I am not encouraging you to eat just fruit, but maybe try have something that you won't feel so obliged to work off. If you can eat fruit and keep the calories in you as opposed to purging or exercising, you will feel so much better.

Why don't you try eat more healthy food regular? It might help you. This way you know what you're eating is healthy and isn't bad for you at all.

[emma01]

Originally Posted by Jessie'Lou

Why don't you try eat more healthy food regular? It might help you. This way you know what you're eating is healthy and isn't bad for you at all.

I know what I eat is healthy? And i do eat healthy regularly

[emma01]

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

Giving up on recovery I meant and even if its healthy I freak out about burning it of
I'll keep trying though

If you give up and get so bad you might die. And no one wants that!

[Music In My Heart 120]

Originally Posted by emma01

If you give up and get so bad you might die. And no one wants that!

True but I freak even though when I eat healthy food and I'm not strong ED is a monestar who won't let me be or escape I feel so useless and powerless fainter fighting my ED

[Music In My Heart 120]

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Originally Posted by emma01

I know what I eat is healthy? And i do eat healthy regularly

Jessie lou was responding to me on that post showing your suggestion an jessie was Tryin to ask me if your suggestion would be helpful or work or help me.

[emma01]

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

True but I freak even though when I eat healthy food and I'm not strong ED is a monestar who won't let me be or escape I feel so useless and powerless fainter fighting my ED

Oh I totally agree, EDs suck like hell I know that. I can't offer you any more advice than get in a hospital. I was forced in pretty much even though I was very mentally stable and eating and whatnot I dont know why you aren't in yet!

Originally Posted by Music In My Heart 120

Jessie lou was responding to me on that post showing your suggestion an jessie was Tryin to ask me if your suggestion would be helpful or work or help me.

Ahh okay sorry I was confusedd.