i cant tell them

[puala__koala]

okay, so my therapist said i needed more intensive treatment and told me to get an appointment at this place. the problem is, to be able to get the treatment, i need to tell my parents. i really cant tell them. i can just imagine their responses. they will probably tell everyone they know, ask me all these questions like "did you throw up dinner last night?", and play food police. they will probably also yell at me and tell me im not good enugh, like they always do. i also DO NOT want them involved in my therapy in any way shape or form. they think theyre helping, but all they do is tear me to pieces emotionally.

i really cannot take this. i would honestly rather kill myself than tell them. it literally sounds more pleasant to drown myself, or jump of a tall building, or choke myself, or take a knife and slit it down my neck, etc. than tell them. i mean if they become involved in my therapy it wont go well, and ill die of starvation anyways.

help?

[My_Hero]

Do you think there's any way your therapist could talk to your parents and tell them he/she is the one recommending different treatment not necessarily because you're relapsing, but because it'll be more beneficial in recovery? If your parents get you into this new treatment, they don't really need to be involved at all after that. Your 17, and any form of therapy is completely confidential (unless it's residential).
Good luck hon, I really hope you're able to get the treatment you need despite this road block.