Developing an ED =/

[My_Hero]

I used to be like, the biggest pig ever. I was never self conscious about my weight so I didn't care how much I ate. (Ah, the good ol' days)
These past few months I've been eating less and less; to the point where I'll go almost 2 days straight without eating anything more than a few crackers. It was generally just because I wasn't hungry, or I just wasn't in the mood to eat. I wasn't not eating because I wanted to lose weight or be skinny. On thanksgiving I still totallyyyy pigged out and ate more than like, 4 people combined =/
These past few weeks have been a different story. I've finally gotten to the point where there is really nothing I like about myself or my body. Before I could be like, yeah, I have a nice body shape, am pretty skinny, etc. Now I'm starting to think that I'm fat and just plain ugly; and thus just not wanting to eat at all. I'm not even 5 feet tall, and weigh just under. On one hand I have my parents yelling at me because I'm "getting too skinny" and then on the other I have a friend commenting on what fat thighs I have. Due to my low self esteem, I'm inclined to believe my friend =/
I haven't gotten to the point where I just don't eat at all. I still eat whatever I want to, but as I'm eating it I'm thinking, "well this is only gonna make me fatter and thus uglier" and then I get sick to my stomach. When I'm hungry I try to hold out on eating a long as possible. Part of me wants to just not eat at all; because at least then I'd be able to say, yeah, I'm really skinny, that can make up for my hideous face or hair or w.e
I watched my best friend struggle with anorexia and bulimia and wind up in the hospital; and I don't want to go down that road at all, but I'm afraid I'm starting too..

[Nightmare]

You, my dear friend, are not fat in the least bit. you're thighs are much skinnier than mine (mine are pretty big ya know.) and [Edited] and 5 feet...well...that's far from obese and you know that. I'm thinking that you've just gotten used to not having much to eat and now you feel like when you do have food that you don't need it and you're fat for eating it. Well, that's not true. Not eating for days isn't healthy at all, it takes away your focus and concentration and makes you unhappy. So, eating will thus increase your grades and your happiness.
Btw, I'm gonna start making you eat lunch, seriously =P you have free lunch, use it.
-Dan

[My_Hero]

lol, if only that were true =P buttt, it's really not.
And no, you can't make me eat lunch, thanks =)

[CherryxPie]

There isn't much I can say to make you think otherwise, I could tell you that you are not fat, but I don't know you or what you look like and if I did you would probably think I'm lying. But I would like to say that other people aren't you, other people don't walk in your shoes every day, feel the way you feel, have the same appetite as you or have the same body as you. Considering that, do they really have an opinion on your thigh size? Or how skinny you are? The same goes for every other aspect of you. So listening to other people on your own body, wouldn't that be a ridiculous thing to do? If you are hungry, you eat, it's natural it's normal and the same goes for however your body turns out.
As to thinking you are ugly, I live by this, How do I expect others to respect and love me, If I can't do the same to myself. I don't believe that anyone is ugly, it sounds cheesy (aha) but what people look like doesn't matter to me as I think about them as a person, not as an object to look at and think, that's nice.
Ofc this is all my opinion but, I hope you can see some sense in it, I do what I like because that is what makes me happy that is how I want to live my life even if I eat a whole turkey at Christmas and end up the size of a house at least I enjoyed it! ;D
Best wishes sweetie