coming to senses... maybe...

[Reflections]

Ugh... I can't do this anymore, it's killing me. My friend on this chat for iPod has been helping me a bit... And well... Ya... I might ask for help, or bring this to my counselor... My friend says my blood is full of toxins or something, and just overall I need IP... I doubt I'll get IP, or even any help if I say this... But if I do I don'tknow what... I'm erally scared of what's goign to happen if I tell anyone I don't want to gain, but I can't live like this... My body is on the verge of giving out I swear... Last ngiht I binged and was in tears because I knew i couldn't purge or work it off... I don't know anymore... I haven't relapsed long, so I'm thinking that they'll just over look it...This Friday would be the 2nd week of starving and exceissive exercising... So I don't think they'll do anything because it's not long. I remember them saying that they will only treat a ED if it's been present for 3 months... So ya...

[purplekc95]

Thats nonsense! They should be able to treat you before it gets worse and you end up killing yourself! I can tell that you dont want to relapse, who does? i can also see you dont want to gain but if you just follow a low carb diet and exercise , not too excessively you'll be fine (:

[Through-Glass]

Alice,

I think it's great that you are finally beginning to realize that your body will not tolerate much more of this. You can get treatment for your eating disorder at any stage in it's development; sometimes, you cannot be sent to an ED-specific program unless you have been "officially" diagnosed. However, you CAN still get treatment.

This is a very scary stage of recovery, and I know from experience how difficult it is. However, you CAN and WILL get through it. You can regain control of your life; stay strong. I recommend reading a few books or articles about this; while I was still in recovery, reading about different treatment options or other people's positive experiences would get me all hyped up about it. Seems like a simple task, but it really can help a lot.

Take care. If you ever need anything, do not hesitate to PM me.

[Heartlines.]

Admitting that you need help can be a scary thing. You have a counselor, she is there for a reason. I think that you should tell her exactly what you told us. I know that can be hard, but you really should tell her. I think sometimes, if you ask to be inpatient, then they might put you in there. Generally though, inpatient are for those who can not funtion on their own because ED has taken over. Now don't quote me on this because I am not for sure. There are a few others on this site who are more knowlegable in IP for ED's. If you can't get into IP, I would research some programs and what not that can help you with your ED.

Please don't give up. I know you can do this. <3

[Reflections]

Thanks everyone. I someone hinted around it in a questionaire I did at mood group, but I don't think that's going to do anything. I'm not sure anymore, it's weird. I'm almost possitive no one's going todo anything, which is why I don't want to tell anyone :\

Also, where can I find books and articles about that?

[purplekc95]

MMM just do some research online... thats what i'd do.

[DivingCheska]

I don't think the whole only treating you if it's been going on for three months is the truth...Because I just got refured to someone and even though I have had symptoms for a long time the person said I didn't have an ED yet but she whats me in her program because pretty soon if I don't change my thinking it will turn into anorexia. So with that said I think you should tell your counclor whats gong on and have her help you through it.

Originally Posted by Reflections

Also, where can I find books and articles about that?

The person I went to gave me a magizin with a bunch of books and websites for this I can't get t right now because it's really late but if you want them PM me and when I can I will send you them with the discription it has for them.