Triggering (ED): My sisters know!

[rosaleah]

Two of my sisters know about my eating disorder (anorexia and/or bulimia). My one sister was looking though all my stuff and found out that i had two calorie counter apps on my ipod and that i had an anorexia test app, and that it was still in the search box. Then she searched through the history on my computer and ipod and saw all the websites i have been at (teenhelp mostly). So now two of my sisters know about my eating disorder , and they keep nagging me to eat more.

I have been eating A LOT in front of them at dinner, and they will still say "wow, that's all your eating" and they will nag me every time i go biking or even just on the swings. its really bothering me because even when i eat almost the same amount as my parents they will still look at me funny and bring up the awkward conversation about me in front of my parents. they will say things like "you know your a teenager and you can eat and eat and eat as much as you want and not gain ANY weight" or "wow, your not full, your a teenager. you have a bottomless stomach and never get full".. She will say that so that my mom and dad notice what I'm eating.

(Also) I was the one who tattled on my sister two years ago about her bulimia, so she has a pretty good reason to tattle on me for my anorexia and/or bulimia

So now my mom and dad are getting suspicious about me too. What should i do to shut my sisters up? or to convince them I'm fine?
But at least if they find out i wont have anything to hide, and i can eat/ not eat freely. They can't FORCE me to eat. And if they find out i wont have to pretend to eat when im not or stuff my face.

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

Hey there.

I would say that them finding out is a good thing in the long run. It may not seem like that now, but in the future if you carry on with the way you're eating/not eating, there will be serious health problems.

From your post, it sounds like you haven't got a diagnosis, and you're not showing physical signs of an eating disorder, just behavior. Correct me if I'm wrong. Obviously I don't know everything about you, but it sounds like they've caught you at the right time, because left longer this could develop into something much worse.

I know that you think you are fine, but eating disorders are called disorders for a reason. I think that you should go to your parents, perhaps even before your sisters do, and get some help, even if all that's needed is a healthy eating plan so that you can learn to eat healthily.

I know that it's really hard to get help, but please don't try to hide this. You have a chance to get help, and it'll be hard but I think you should take it.

When you get to a certain weight or BMI (I'm not quite sure how it works), doctors CAN force you to eat. You really don't want it to get to this stage, which is what happens with anorexia. It'll be hard, but I'm urging you to take this opportunity to get help and sort yourself out before it's too late. You can do it, you're strong enough.

Remember, I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. x

[rosaleah]

Originally Posted by DemolitionLover

When you get to a certain weight or BMI (I'm not quite sure how it works), doctors CAN force you to eat. You really don't want it to get to this stage, which is what happens with anorexia.
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How can they force someone to eat? Its not like they can pry your mouth open and shove food down your throat.

[Kate*]

If your weight gets low enough they can probably force you into the hospital. I know you're battling this thing, but them finding out is a good thing because you can't keep doing this to yourself it causes a ton of damage and if it goes on long enough, the damage may not be reversible. People die from this, the sooner you stop doing it, the better.

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

What Katie said is what I meant. If you are at a dangerously low weight and you refuse to, or can't, put on weight, doctors can put you into hospital and feed you through a tube.

I'm not trying to scare you, it sounds like it's nowhere near that point yet, but if you don't get help it could end up like that. This is an opportunity to get some support, and I think you should take it. Your sisters have noticed that something is up, showing that there is something wrong with your eating habits, and if you think it is an eating disorder, all the more reason to get help.

Good luck. x

[♥ Choir. ♥]

You "tattled" on your sister when you found out about her bulimia. Did you "tattle" because you don't like her, did you "tattle" because you were mad, or did you "tattle" because you love your sister and don't want anything bad to happen to her? Damage from eating disorders can be non-reversible, eating disorders can cause serious harm to the body, they can even cause death. Your sisters are telling you to eat more, making it obvious in front of your parents because they're giving you a choice right now; don't let it take complete control over you or they'll force you to get help. They're doing that because they love you, and one of your sisters understands what having an eating disorder is like.

I understand how you are probably feeling toward them. My brother and a few friends are suspicious or know that I have an eating disorder, and they always make sure I eat enough. My brother will come to my room before I go to bed and ask what I ate throughout the day, he can tell if I'm lying, and if I didn't eat as much as I should have, he makes me go downstairs and sits with me until I eat enough. My friends will yell at me if I 'forget' my lunch or give it all away. On a class trip with school one of them yelled at me every meal because I would only eat a bite or two of salad. I understand what it's like to have people know, but know that in the end it will be for the better.

If you ever want to talk just send me a PM, I'll be willing to help you out.

[Kira-Kira]

its good they found out they can help u can get better now and it will be ok they are there to support you and love you let them let them help best of luck

[starship ranger]

Honestly, I think you should be relieved that they found out, especially since one of them had the same issues before. I know it's got to be scary as hell, but you know now that they're there to help, and even if how they're trying to help seems annoying or nagging, they love you and are trying to get you better. I think it would be good to consult your sisters about it and ask them to try a different method of helping you. Perhaps ask them kindly not to be so pressuring about it. If you feel you can start to get better, definitely let them help. In the long run, it's a good thing that they know. At least somebody knows, even if it's not your parents or a guardian. It's better than letting yourself suffer in silence.

[rosaleah]

Thanks for the help. and i guess it makes sense. i guess sisters are sisters and they can do annoying stuff sometimes. even if they are trying to help it still annoying.

But them forcing me to eat made my actually puke from eating so much all of a sudden. now everytime at supper or any meal we are together, they make me get lots of food and i will puke after eating it. they dont know this is happening though. I dont want to puke because it tastes horrible and because i dont want to ruin my teeth, but i cant help it because they force me to eat so much!

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

In my opinion this is why you need to talk to them about it. Because then you can get the help you need instead of them trying to help and making you feel worse. Even if you don't go to your parents, I'd recommend at least talking to your sisters about it, so that you can work out ways to keep helping you without making you puke. x