Urgh. Long time no see.

[Hallelujah]

I used to really struggle with anorexia in my early to mid teens, though it was less because I wanted to lose weight but more because I just didnt want to eat.

And now, it rears its ugly head again. I managed a slice of toast for breakfast. Felt fat.
Ate nothing all day yesterday, then ate pasta for tea and cried all night about it.

I feel disgusting. I look in the mirror and see this huge fat monster and I can't stand it. Weighed myself and cried.

trying not to eat today.

I dont know what to do.

How do I stop it?

[Photographylove217]

Anorexia is a tough thing to deal with, I know - I've been there. It isn't something that you are ever really cured from. Sure, you may not be starving yourself every day, but there is always that thought somewhere in the back of your mind. It's a life-long struggle, but I have found that there are a few things that I have found help me cope from day to day. First, I got rid of my scale. For me, the scale just taunted me, and every time I found myself stepping onto it my self-esteem went down a notch. Not weighing myself every day (or even every week) helps me. Now I don't have that little machine mocking me (as crazy as that sounds) every time I turn around. It has been two years since i got healthy, though I still don't eat normal sized meals. I have found that if I am eating healthy, I feel less guilty. I try to avoid carbs such as bread and crackers, and instead go for part of an apple dipped in natural peanut butter or a couple sticks of celery. As daunting as it may seem to stand in front of the mirror, try just looking at yourself for a few minutes and point out features about you that you like. Say it out loud. Remind yourself every morning that you ARE beautiful. Finally, I talk to people. No, not a therapist. I talk to a couple close friends, one of which happened to be going through the same thing.
My PM box is always open, and here is my Email if you ever need someone to talk to: PhotographyDreams217@yahoo.com
Stay Strong.