I really need help !!!

[jamur89]

ryt soo here it is i have spent 4 months in hospital because of anorexia...i was discharged just over a month ago and am at a normalish weight !! but the thing is im relapsin alredy i am cutting down wat i eat, lying 2 my parent exercising and purging wen ever i can...i cant do this anymore ! why am i relapsing soo quickly has this happened to anyone else am i weak or just stupid !!!

some 1 help me please because i cant take this anymore !!!

[Levar5000]

If you want rehab/ hospial to WORK you have to want it to work!
Try to get back in a hospital ASAP!!!
I hope it works out

[Fairy Poppins]

Hi jamur89.

First of all, you are not weak or stupid!

All humans are creatures of habit and feel safe in the comfort zone of what we're used to.

You've not long come out of hospital. Before you went in you were living your life in one way and now suddenly you've been told you have to live it another way. It's understandable that you're going to go back to your old way, it's familiar and you know how it works. Plus, the feelings that caused you to have this eating disorder in the first place are probably still with you.

However, as I know you're aware, it's not a healthy lifestyle and you know you will only end up back in hospital. So it's good that you're asking for advice now rather than later.

It is easy to slip back into old habits and we all do it. Whether it's self-harm, or depression, or biting nails, etc etc. But if you want to move on, you have to fight the urge. You are stronger than you think you are. If you are able to do all this behind your parent's backs, it shows how stubborn you are and stubbornness is actually a good thing when it comes to wanting to recover.

Although you are no longer in hospital, are you still having sessions with a Psychiatrist? It's important that you are not dealing with this on your own. Just because you are out of hospital, does not mean you are in the clear and I therefore think it's crucial for you to have professional support in these early days.

If you are attending sessions with a Psychiatrist, you need to be honest with them and tell them how you are feeling so that they can help you. You may not always be able to be honest with your parents (I know I wasn't when I was in therapy), but it's important you are truthful to your Psychiatrist.

Take care of yourself.

J. x

[Heartlines.]

Through recovery, relapses are going to happen. But the most important thing you can do is be talking to people for support. Do you have a counselor or a therapist that you could talk to? I think that you should really keep them informed because they're the ones that could help. I know it's real easy to lie to your parents about how much you're actually eating, but I think you should tell them the truth. Tell them that you're struggling again. If it's hard for you to tell them, maybe write them a letter saying it all. That you're having a hard time following a good food plan. Also, is there a possible way you could get into see a nutritionist? They can create a healthy diet plan for you that makes you feel comfortable. I think that would really help. But bottom line, you're recovering. you're going to slip and fall a bit. But more important part is bringing yourself back up. You can do that by communicating with people, and following what the hospital told you to do when you were in there.

Take care,
-Lyndsee