Triggering (ED): getting worse

[smiles07x]

soo within the past week my eating habits have gotten worse. i usually don't have breakfast and if i do its just half of a banana usually..during lunch i only take (edited) so no suspects anything and i have a like (edited)...i eat dinner though but if i feel i ate to much i try to purge and sometimes do. I like the feeling of being thin and hateeeeeee when my weight goes up. I have always been underweight and just am used to it as is everyone else. whenever i get the chance to walk or run i do and i can just feel that this is all getting worse..it's been just aboutt three months and I just don't know what to do. I try to pick up food to eat it but then just put it right back down when i go to just have like an oreo. I always weigh myself (7 times a day) about and count to see how much calories i am eating...my parents are starting to notice that i am eating less because yesterday all i had was like (edited)..but that was a lot for breakfast so when dinner came i told my parents i wasn't hungry..at first they said okay and i was happy..but then my dad made me have something..i had (edited)...but when i got up i spit half of one out when know one was looking...later i took a shower and purged verryyy little..and went for a mile walk with my dad...i can feel it getting worse but I'm not ready to tell my parents..i don't want them to be disappointed in me.

[Revolution]

Hey there,

As you obviously know, these habits are not healthy. The restricting is hurting your body and metabolism, and the purging is hurting your organs and teeth. Do your really want to continue going down this road?

I know it is hard for you to talk to your parents, but you seem to be struggling so much, I would highly recommend you talk to an adult you trust about the way you feel, and the habits you've been engaging in. This has been going on so long, and you are not happy with how you look, or even the results you have received. You know you need help, and I want to let you know that you deserve it as well.

Although this is for Depression and Suicide, this link still applies: These are some people who can help you.. I know you do not want to disappoint people, but the way you are going, they are going to find out eventually. You deserve to be happy, and deserve to get help. Talk to your parents, talk to your counselor. If you are too scared to say something, write a letter or an email. But you no longer need to suffer anymore.

I really hope you help yourself. I, nor anybody else, can't force you to get help, but please, do it for you. If you ever need anything, feel free to contact me.

[smiles07x]

Thank you. it hasn't been for that long...only about three months maybe. some of the things i said..like weighing and counting have been going on for awhile..but the eating as little as i do only really got this bad during this week. Thank you for the advicee...I'm constantly thinking about what to do but at the same time I'm scared about reactions and that if i stop i will get fat.


ANDD my mom just went major food shopping and bought such DELICIOUSSS food but i go to grab and just turn away because i don't want to snackkkk.. then when they offer it i just get frustrated and yell at them when i say no.