Feel guilty

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

I was trying so hard, eating well over the last two days, eating the right amount of food and not feeling too guilty.

And then today it all went wrong. I binged. I know it's not a huge binge and it was because I'm on my period and I was craving chocolate and it shouldn't make me put on weight but I felt so guilty. And then I spent ten minutes over the toilet but I can't purge. My gag reflex isn't strong enough.

My throat hurts and the food's still there and I hate that thought. And although I can't seem to purge, no matter when I try, the urges to do it are really strong. What do I do now? I feel really guilty about this binge.

[Revolution]

It's okay! You were doing so well! Be proud of your achievements. And as you said, it's normal to have these cravings at this time. You've done nothing wrong.

I'm always here for you! Be proud for these two days!

[Kate*]

It's normal for the eating disorder thoughts to do this to you, especially this early on, but you have done nothing wrong. I think most people crave and eat chocolate during their period (I know I do!) You have nothing to feel guilty about, even if your disorder tells you you do. It sounds like you're doing great.

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

Thanks guys. I feel a bit better now, I guess I've just got to keep trying. I just hadn't realised how hard it would be to stop because I hadn't realised how bad it had got.

[jay07]

YEAH. I just told my parents about 5 days ago that i was struggling with food issues for not even that long..about 2 months. I had a family party though..was doing good..had fruit for breakfast and dinner...then dessert came and i had cake and some cookies..It was the worst feeling. I purged after..only a little though. But my mom talked to me..she made me realize that i had to choose if i wanted to be skin and bones or healthy..and of course healthy..but getting there is hard after you start such horrible habits...i felt how you felt..just talk to someone. I did and i start therapy on monday. Just telling someone really really makes a difference. best of luck.

[Nomatophobia]

Don't feel bad, it's the first time happening and it's because of your period. You're doing a great job with your healthy diet. <3

[Peppermint Tea.♥]

Thanks. I'm seeing the counselor again tonight, I might try and bring it up.