Female Advice Preferred: Cant help myself

[meglynn]

I am fifteen and have been struggling with an eating disorder for 2 years. I just got kicked off the cheer team because my coach found out and she is worried about me. I can't make myself eat more and I am scared.

[Heartlines.]

I think that you getting kicked off the cheer team was a good thing. I think that you should take it as a wake up call. You have an eating disorder. I was on the cheer squad too, with ENDOS. It was really difficult. But I almost ended up quitting. All the exercise was dangerous to my body. Not to mention I was a base for stunting, and if I didn't have the nutrients, then I would be weak, and could potentially put my flyer in danger. When you're on a team, you have to think of everyone. What was best for the team. Your coach did you a favor. She cares about you, and is worried. She wants you to get help. And I think it would be best that you try and get help, unless of course, you don't want the help and you like feeling this way.

I think you should consider telling your parents. I know that it's hard to do that, but you really should. They need to know that you're partaking in unsafe behavior. They can help you get the support you need, such as counseling. Maybe you can try writing them a letter about what you're going through. That made it easier for me to talk to my mom when I had something big to talk about. I know how hard it is talking to a counselor about things like this, but you have to try. And I promise that it DOES get better. Truly. you just have to put in that effort a step at a time. Maybe blog about your emotions and print them off for someone to read? That worked for me.

I also advise going to the doctor. They can refer you to nutritionist. Nutritionists are people that plan diets and what not for people. I went to one, and they took in account my weight, height, BMI, muscle mass, etc and created a diet for me. They are really good at making people feel comfortable about the diet they get put on. They do all the work for you, all you have to do is follow it. You have to make the effort to actually eat. And I know how hard it is to eat for you, but you have to try. Or at least find support to make you comfortable enough to do that.

Hope this helped.
Take care<3