Fingers down my throat

[Anon E. Mouse]

I know its bad for me, but I'm dying to be thin! My throat hurts and my tummy rumbles, but it'll be worth it right?

I just want to be skinny like everyone else. I'm tired of being the fat girl who can't run a 1/4 mile in gym class without gasping for air.

Is there a way I can throw up without my throat hurting?

[Agoraphobia♥]

Hey look, I'm sorry but no one here is going to tell you how to aid yourself in progressing an eating disorder, we here are for support for recovery, we are not a pro eating disorder site. I encourage you to seek some help from a doctor and/or therapist. Everyone here in this forum knows how it feels to feel that way, and for that reason we are not going to encourage this or give you tips on it.

[Anon E. Mouse]

I'm sorry, I'm sorry I just... I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror and see the thing looking back.

[Agoraphobia♥]

We know how that feels we do, but I strongly encourage you to get help, otherwise this is only going to get worse. It's not your fault you feel like that, an eating disorder is that, a disorder, you can't control how it makes you feel until you want to get better, and I suggest trying to see a professional to get better.

[Anon E. Mouse]

We can't afford a therapist....This site is all I've got

[Agoraphobia♥]

Well in any case, if you want to get better we're here for you, but we aren't going to give you tips on how to keep up this destructive behaviour that we know all too well.

[Anon E. Mouse]

Okay....I need to get better...But its so hard..

[Agoraphobia♥]

I know it is, but you can come on here any time for support and advice on how to get better, my PM is also always open, just click my username above my picture on one of my posts and click the button that says send leochick123 a private message.

[Jas]

Minor wake up call:

Seven years in, it still hurts (and not just my throat), I'm not thin (in fact I'm overweight medically speaking), and I can't run a mile without either a) wondering if the extra exertion is going to be the thing that pushes me into a heart attack or b) having to stop because I'm so malnourished I suck at any kind of endurance activity. It's so not worth it that when I do the math I've spent many thousands of dollars on puking, almost a year cumulatively in hospital, been broken up with on account of it, never finished high school... I could go on and on and on, and the likelihood is that no matter what I say if you really want to stick those fingers down your throat, you will. I certainly did. But I'll say it anyway, because if you're asking if it's worth it, some part of you knows that it. is. not.

So I know it's easier said than done but you give me the impression that you've only recently started and the only thing I can tell you really is to stop. However you can, because if you don't stop now the chances you will go down. You may not be able to afford therapy but make use of this site, make use of whatever resources you can, buy a recovery workbook, talk to people, talk to a school counselor if not a private one... just do what you can, because this isn't going to give you what you say you want. Purging's not a die-t, more of a u-die.

Anyway, I hope this isn't too preachy - it just makes me sad and regretful when I read this kind of thread, and I really do wish you the best. Take care of yourself, yeah?

[Katie Lydia]

Purging advtanges:
You lose a pound every few months and the minute you eat something you put DOUBLE back on.

Purding disadvantages
Discoloured, rotting teeth
Teeth falling out
Hair falling out
Spots/acne
Bloating
Sore throat
Internal damage
Nail damage
Mouth infection
Fatigue
Death

The bad out ways the good doesn't it? I suffer from bulimia, it's nothing glamourous and it DOES NOT make you thin, it's a common misconception that it does. The only way that we'll encourage weight loss on this forum is by healthy eating and excercise, the easiest is to have breakfast, that way your metabolism is wide awake and your burning energy throughout the day. Skipping meals keeps your metabolism asleep and the minute you eat something your body is not going to burn it off, it's going to keep it for energy!
Excercise doesn't neccessarily mean running mile after mile, going for a 30min walk each day does the trick, maybe not even 30 minutes, build it up over a few months.

Trust me, bulimia is nasty. I could send you a picture of my teeth and that will put you off it.

PM me if you need anything. x

[Cereal And Milk]

hey man not everyone is skinny! your probably not happy being big, so try to keep a good nutritional diet plan going, you'll be better in a zip