Female Advice Preferred: iam bulimic

[TheNicole9210]

ok i am 19yrs old, idk how much i weigh anymore. the last i checked i was [EDITED] but i've been losin and gaining weight over the past few months now, so its never a certain weight 4me. i am bulimic and been that way for a year now.. my boyfriend just recently found out that i am bulimic... i know i have a problem and i've tried to stop but i cant... every time i eat, i feel this overwhelming voice in my head saying your going to get fat. i dont keep nothing down... i purge and purge till nothing comes out and if i drink anything, i hurry and get it out of my system... i want help but i cant afford it... i know i am sick but every time i try to stop, i end up back where i started and those images in the mirror and the thoughts take over me... sometimes i feel as if i dont even know who i am anymore. i feel as if i have lost myself.. like theres no hope. i hate my size... i hate everything about me... i have grown weaker and i hurt all the time... i've called therapists to seek help but its to much money and i cant afford it... well im just gonna end it there but any advice, plz let me know.... :/

[Xx.Shes.Unbroken.xX]

Well, I am too/was. I stopped for my boyfriend. And, I gained TONS of weight. :/ It apparently messes up your metabolism when you do that and then stop. So, if you do stop.. excersise.

Also, when you're bullimic... everything you put in your mouth instantly starts to break down and digest. So, even if you eat and eat, then puke.. you're still getting about 3/4s of those calories you consumed. 1/2 if you're lucky. When you lose weight from that... you're not really losing any weight. You're only losing water weight. You can only do that by excersing and eating healthy foods. You don't really gain any muscle or burn any calories by purging. It actually only makes things worse. It can tear up your throat because of the acids and mess up your stomach really bad. Just thought I would tell you. Think about these things if you want to get better. I know it's hard. But, there is always hope.

--Michelle<3

[Heartlines.]

There is more of an issue with what's going on internally, rather than the Bulimia itself. Besides your weight, is there anything going on that is making you want to binge an purge? Because after all, binging and purging is still considered Self Harm. And it's highly addictive. Are you aware of what happens to your body after binging and purging? You can get ulcers in your stomach and esophogus. It's very very painful. After a while, your body will start rejecting everything you put in it, making recovery that much harder. I would also like to point out that the enamel on your teeth will wear down. And that's not the best either. That's just a few of many health risks associated with Bulimia. To me, there are other ways to lose weight.

If you really want to lose weight, you should try the healthy way. The poster above me is right, Bulimia will not help you lose weight. Reason being is, you consume a ton of calories, then throw it right back up. You're essentially coming out even. You throw up all the calories you ate and you literally wouldn't have lost of gained any in the process. So it's basically a waste of time, as nothing was gain and nothing was lost. To lose weight the healthy way, you have to eat healthy and exercise healthy. This is the BEST way to lose weight, and the healthiest. Exercising will also make you feel better mentally, as exercising can release what's called endorphins. It basically boosts your mood. So, the plus to exercise and eating healthy:
-Better mood.
-Healthy weight loss.

Also, here is a thread on healthy eating if you would like to take a look at it:
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f16-g...ealthy-eating/

Lastly, I know that you can't afford help, but there are ways to get help with little to no cost. A lot of counseling places will bill you off of what's called a sliding fee scale. Basically they take in account your source of income, dependants in the home, etc. Because I'm so broke, I get counseling services practically free. So, it's something for you to look into. If you really want recovery, you'll work for it. Also, do you have a support system? Such as friends and family? I would suggest talking to your parents and see if they can help you. You don't have to go through this alone. My best suggestion would be to form a support system and open up to them. They can really help you. Especially if you let them. Vent to them. Listen to them. Etc.

I hope this helped.
Take care,
-Lyndsee