Triggering (Suicide): I QUIT!

[Blair]

I tried my best. I was following my meal plan as much as I possibly could, I was going to therapy, and taking my meds. But it wasn't good enough. It's never good enough. They're sending me back to residential. Shipping me across the country because I'm not good enough to be home. All I've done I've done for them, for my family, because I love them and I wanted them to be proud of me and not worry all the time. So I did my best but my best wasn't enough. So I quit. I'm done eating. If I'm gonna die, which everyone seems to think, I might as well leave a skinny corpse.

[Katrina]

Just wanted to stop by and leave you some encouragement, Blair. I know this seems like a huge setback right now, but it sounds like you could really benefit by going to residential. I don't think that means that your friends or family don't love you or aren't proud of you; if anything, I think it shows that they DO love you and ARE proud of you and want to see you continue to recover--perhaps, though, they're hoping to see you want to recover for YOURSELF, rather than for everyone else, you know?

Keep with it, okay? You've been doing really well, and I hope that things turn up.

[Blair]

Thanks honey. I just have yet to figure out how to deal with the goodbyes and when I overstress, I undereat.

[Heartlines.]

Hun,
I understand what you're going through. I get how hard recovery can be. And honestly, set backs are going to come. But I like to think of it as a test of your strength. If you're family isn't proud of you, then so be it. While it would make recovery easier to have the support of your parents, you also don't need it. You recover for you. Don't let this hold you back. Please take in all the help you can get. Continue to follow your meal plan. Continue to do the things that you've been doing (healthy wise). And when you feel like under-eating, try eating something that's healthy and that will give you nutrition. I know it's hard, but this a journey. And while it may seem hard right now, you're going to get through this. Alive. I know you are.

Please take care of yourself.

[Revolution]

Because you have a more updated thread (right here) talking about the same issue, I'm going to close this thread. Feel free to message me if you disagree, and I can reopen this one, it's no biggie!

Stay strong!
-Traci