I dunno.

[Dracopyreheart]

I dunno what's happening to me.

I rarely sleep anymore. I only get like 4 hours of sleep. I haven't been diagnosed with anything, and I can't tell my parents, because when I can't sleep, I sneak downstairs because I find my armchair more comfortable than my bed. (I'm not meant to be downstairs after I go to bed until the sun rises.)

The thing is, the only time this happens is when I get an idea for some form of creative activity. For some reason, I can't sleep until I've seen the idea through, meaning I've had many a sleepless night on my laptop.

Whether this is fortunate or not, the English department at my school has given me a load of competitions to enter, with varying styles and themes. The reason I'm undecided about whether it's fortunate or not is because I often get the idea for one particular competition entry when I'm going to sleep. Which means I'm unable to sleep that night.

I don't feel tired at all, even with my minimal sleep. I don't know why this is and I'm deeply confused.

One thing that happens when I have lack of sleep is I become way more irritable than usual (not really that much to notice except to me!). This hasn't been good because at school I'm being harrassed by the majority of my year, and I've lashed out a number of times. I've also walked out of lessons to avoid hitting people, but sometimes, they deliberately block my exit.

I don't want to be angry.
I don't want to be tired.
What's happening to me?

[TheLittleNinja]

Hey there,

Have you tried to really wear yourself out during the day - by doing excerise - so your too tired to think at night? This may be an idea. If this works, then maybe you could devote your evenings to thinking about your creative projects and such.

Your right too, sleeping will make you irritable because your tired, and your doing the right thing by walking out of classes to avoid violence - I do that too

Also, make sure that you are logged off from ALL electrical equipment before you sleep - this includes laptops, phones and musical devices! You should also NOT eat or drink anything sugary, with caffeine or alcohol directly before sleep (Although, I hope at 13 you don't drink anyway )

If this persists then I would ask to see a doctor, your parents don't need to know where you go when you dont sleep - just tell them that you stay in your room?!

I hope this helps,
Claire