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Something sort of new - October 10th 2009, 02:01 PM

Ive been around drugs before, a lot, and seen things and had someone die of them. It's all I sort of need to put me off taking them. I never myself took drugs, always kept that distance. I know myself, I can get addicted all too easily. Plus Im allergic to cigarette smoke so I assume Im allergic to stuff like canabis and weed.

Frankly, I don't know what my point is. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this, so I keep coming on here with any old shit that barely matters. It's enough for me to get a flu, and Im addicted to the cough mixture. Im taking a dose every 1 hour. A sip, it's sick. I just fucking hate myself sometimes for this. I can barely help it. I make sure it's a sip so I don't OD though. Im prepared to bet that Il still be taking it after the flu has passed.

Now Im at uni, and there's new people all around me. Quite a few smoke weed. It's all over the place, I haven't seen anything higher class though around here yet. All I need is to get drunk, and I know Il end up taking that fucking step, that Ive avoided for so many years. Im too fucking depressed right now to hold it out, Im feeling probably the worst ever. This is finishing me. To still be standing here having taken the beating is amazing, all I need now is for me to finish myself off. Ive seen it happen, and I don't fucking want it. Ive never been this before.
   
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Re: Something sort of new - October 10th 2009, 02:04 PM

Choices just seem so much simpler. I barely care what hapens to me anymore. If I stuck it out in the past it was for the sake of others, it complicated my choices. Now things seem very clear cut. Do I, or do I not? The reasons don't matter. My defences have just broken down. I can't get a grip on myself. The slightest shit I overhear when other talk, not even about me, tips me off balance.
   
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