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Annoyed with myself.. - January 13th 2010, 12:00 AM

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I bought a couple oxycodone pills today.

As a little back story, I was addicted to oxycodone and vicodin for 5 years, as well as using some other heavy drugs. I've been doing pretty well for the past couple months. But today I was presented with the opportunity, and it makes me angry how easily I slipped.

I have about a million excuses swimming around in my mind right now. Foremost being that I actually do have a disability that causes me a lot of pain, which is why I started using in the first place. Ugh. I haven't taken them yet, but I have very little to stop me right now.

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I lost myself in the space between heaven and hell.
...where do we go from here?



R.I.P. Sarah; 1991-2009
Kacy; 1992-2009
I'll never forget.

Two months clean and sober.
Seven months since last cut.
Still struggling and surviving.

   
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Re: Annoyed with myself.. - January 13th 2010, 02:35 AM

I, like you have had a major issue in the past with the same opiates. I know what you're going through and honestly, don't be annoyed or disappointed in yourself. You're very brave for staying clean that long and relapse is almost always inevitable for a recovering addict. Hell if my dad hadn't flushed all his prescripts down the toilet 2 years back, I have no clue where i'd be now. My advice to you about your pain though is to see your doctor and see if there's anything you can have that isn't habit forming. I know of some meds out there that don't carry that risk. Stay strong You're doing great.
   
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