Triggering (SH): I'm useless :| (smoking... again)

[Rainbow Dash]

I've started smoking again. If anything I'm smoking more than I did before :| These nicotine gums are no longer working >.> They just taste bad, lift the cravings away for a few minutes and gives me loads of saliva in my mouth.

I keep smoking without noticing it. I'm doing it when I'm bored more than anything :/ Also, when I'm in work (I'm a part-time bar-maid) it gives me an excuse to go on a small break.

I went to my doctor's last year and he give me nicotine replacement tablets, they made me quite depressed :/ I had to stop taking them as I thought they'd make me go less mentally stable than I already was.

The gum is a bit crap.

Also, when I make myself not smoke I feel a bit like self-harming. I'm not entirely sure which is worse for me, self-harm or smoking (well, I guess smoking is sort of self-harm too)

Halp

Edit: I just realised I should have put this in "Substance Use", sorry :/

[Maloo]

You have to tell yourself that you don't need to smoke, or SH. There's no reason you shouldn't be able to live without either of them. To me, it's all mind over matter.

[Rainbow Dash]

The bad thing is I know if I forced myself I could get over both of these things. I just don't know if I have the will-power anymore :/

[Maloo]

If you don't think you have the willpower, you're never going to be able to do it.
If you don't believe in yourself, you have nothing to push you forward.

[i_am_me_again]

Hiya

Im in the exact same situation you are.....

Your not useless.

I too, crave cigarrettes more when I am bored.

I really do think Melissa is correct. Its mind over matter. If you really want quit smoking you will have to find the will power to do it. It will be hard.

However, if inside of you, you dont want to stop, then you wont be able to.

Its definatly mind over matter. And your feeling about smoking will switch. Sometimes you will feel like giving up, sometimes you will not want to give up.

Do whats right for you.

Im positive you can quit if you want to. You are strong and can beat those nasty cravings.

[The Poem Freaks]

Hey, you're not useless. Nicotine is a highly addictive drug, and it is excellent in itself that you managed to stop. Just see this "starting again" thing as another challenge you can face up to; you can do it. You did it before, you can do it again. My dad has been trying to stop for 4 years now, so there you go, you're stronger than a fully grown man.

My advice is to try the patches, the gums, ask around (as I myself have not smoked and am not sure on all the methods used to stop smoking), and just keep going. You've already proven you can do it.

Don't call yourself useless, you're clearly not And also, don't "make" yourself do it, just, do it. If you get what I mean. Telling yourself "I can't do it, I won't do it" just builds up pressure. Try and get it into your head that you are doing it.

The best of luck, keep going, you can do it!