I can't take it anymore I'm running away tonight. My little brother keeps going to the bathroom in his pants, 1 and 2. and he's 9 years old. He refused to go change and so I told my mom. They've been fighting for about 15 min now and my little brother managed to pull the towel bar in the bathroom down. Then my mom came up here, hovered over me with a rubber spatula in her hand, which she normally hits me with and was screaming at me, literally 2 inches from my face, that im not his mother and to stay out of it and that no one died and left me in charge and to stay out out of everyone elses business and to stop breathing on everyone and she doesnt care if he smells and all this and im now crying uncontrolably and I've had it, every day its something else with this family. I am running away tonight.
"Make it stop,
Let this end.
This life chose me, I'm not lost in sin.
But proud I stand of who I am,
I plan to go on living."
Try to calm down and take deep breaths. Families go through rough times, but the important thing is to stay calm and keep your wits about you. What your brother and mom are doing is not right, and it should be dealt with. Especially your mom's behavior is not appropriate. She should be teaching her children how to behave, not threatening them.
Do your best to think of this as a problem that needs to be solved. Running away wont solve the problem, it will most likely increase it. The street is a dangerous place, and you need to be careful. Your safety is a number one priority. If you feel unsafe at home, then you need to contact someone about it, not run away. There are other ways of getting out.
If you absolutely need to get out and you feel unsafe at home, then I highly suggest going over to a friend's house or another family member's house. From there, you can contact social services, either by looking up a number in the phone book or online. This way they can assess what's going on at your house and be able to put you in a safer environment. You will not be safer on the street, so this is your best option.
Running away is not a good thing to do right now. You need to take some time and think about this when you're calmer and try to figure out what is best for your well being.
The great artists of our time are the ones who created something timeless. But it was never them defining it that way.
Everyone has a story. What's yours?
Honestly speaking, I've thought about running away too but then thinking about it again... There's no use. I mean, I know what you're going through is hard but think about it, what will you get from running away? It'll just make you run away from the things life throws at you. At times like this, you should stay strong. That's why we're here in TH, to help and make each other feel better.
Hope this helps. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
— Maya Angelou