Triggering (Grieving): I miss my family.

[Heartlines.]

As some of you may know, I moved 12 hours away from the place I was born an raised. And it's been hard. For sure. Last night I was really thinking about it, and I realize I miss my daddy and mommy. My dad got hit by a train when I was eleven, and died. I let it go, and never allowed myself time to feel and to grieve. Last night I cried for a good 20-30 minutes because I realized just how much I missed my dad. And how to me, it's not fair that he had to die. I don't know/remember what it's like to have a dad anymore. And it hurts.

I called my mom this morning, and we talked for a bit. It helped. I miss my little brother too. He is just so adorable, and so sweet. And I used to treat him like crap.

I just really really miss my family right now, and I can't help but to feel alone right now. I'm crying as I type this.

I guess I'm just looking for words of wisdom and support.


Thanks so much if you read this<3

[BruceLeeDemarcus]

Awwe life is tough on us like that. Just remeber that your dad is always in your heart. So in a way, you are not alone. It just feels that way. Its okay to cry and let your feelings out. Its worse if you hold them in. You can talk to me whenever you need to let out your feelings!

[Le bonheur*]

Your dad is always in your heart, Lynds. I'm so sorry for what you've had to go through but I know that your dad is looking down on you and smiling at your accomplishments and your strength. You're amazing and I know he knows that too. It's great that you talked to your mom about things. Is it possible you can go visit your mom and brother? Or talk to your lil brother and tell him that you love him? Despite everything, family is always going to be there whether it be physically, in your heart, or occasionally. I know it's hard and 12 hours is a long time but maybe you can set once a month to visit or something? Crying is healthy for the soul. Don't think you're weak for crying. You are strong. You are never alone. I'm here for you if you ever need me lovely. xx

[Nomatophobia]

Hey, Lynds, it's ok to cry and grieve out of homesickness and your father. It doesn't make you weak, like Brittany said. It makes you human. Maybe you could talk to your brother over Skype, ask him how he's doing and that you miss him. It's good you got to talk to your mom on the phone for a while, why don't you try doing that every day or every night? I called my mom every night when I was at school in DC. It doesn't make the homesickness any easier, but you get to hear her voice and know she misses you as well.

We're here for you as well, Lyndsee. <3

[Heartlines.]

Thanks for all of your support, people! It truly means a lot to me. I miss my family still, but I'm coping a bit better. The other night I had a full break down. I cried and hyperventilated. It sucked. But I need to deal with it.

I like the idea of skype with my family. My mommy just got a new lappy, so maybe it has webcam, and if it does.. I want her to get skype.

Thanks for letting me vent, guys! :]