I miss her

[Haunted]

I know it's stupid but I had to say this.
There's a friend of mine that comes from Russia and I can see her only for 2 weeks a year, at the seaside. She comes here because of the disaster of Chernobyl in 1986. When we'll be 17 I'll never get to see her again.
The problem is that I always miss her a little bit but this year, since I came home from my vacation, I miss her a lot. Too much actually.
There are days when I'm better and I can deal with this feeling but these days I think I'm missing her way too much.
It started about a week ago, with a soft feeling of homesickness, since I only feel at home when I'm at the seaside, but then it became much stronger and now I only want her to be by my side NOW.
I can only think about her every single minute of the day.
Last year I almost spent a whole night awake because she phoned me and I just told her "goodbye!" before she went back home.
This year... well, let's say it this way: it's midnight here now and I'm still here writing to get advice, hoping someone will tell me how to think less about her.
I can't go on this way. I'm really fragile and sometimes I end up crying for hours for this kind of things. What if it goes on for weeks? How can I hold on with this pressure? I always feel guilty because I am afraid I spent a very little time with her at the seaside and I even talked about her in my signature here on TH!
I need something to distract me from her or I'll go crazy and feel depressed again, like I was in august and I don't want to feel that way again. I almost thought suicide that night and I don't want that to happen again. Self harm is too much for me to handle, I don't want to think suicide just becase I miss a person.
Please help me, I'm going crazy!

[lonely.boy1]

I understand part of what you feel, not in the same way/situation but i do. We can get attach to someone a lot and we might not even see the person in months but miss that person.
I don't think there is a way to switch that off and you will end up learning how to deal with that but what i advise is to try to distract your self and focus on something else,like a project or even just listen music or see a movie.
Also,this might seem cliche, but time helps with almost everything so this intense feeling will probably get less intense as time goes by.

[Haunted]

thank you.