Pain

[Pre9428]

My mother yells at me all day. I'm not overreacting.
She fucking yells at me for everything possible.
She friken yells at me if I get sick or if there's no fricken signal
in her phone! The thing is, I'm so scared right now.
All I think about is how amazing it would be to just die.
She makes me feel worthless. She tells me that I won't
be able to do what I really want in life.
She makes me feel so horrible about myself and then tells
me that everything is my fault.
She tells me that I hurt her. She doesn't listen to me and
she just makes me want to kill myself.
It's like when she looks at me she wonders why the fuck I'm
her daughter. I don't know what to do. It's been going on for
way too long now. I'm literally hanging on by a thread. I hate
myself all cuz of her. And I have no one to talk to.
I just want this to end.

[Imagine849]

Hey, i'm sorry things are so hard for you right now! I know its difficult but try not to let the negative things your mom says affect you, you are a beautiful, amazing person and you deserve to be happy! PM me if you ever need a shoulder to cry on. Hang in there, you're stronger than you realise

[_sunsets64.]

i know exactly what you mean! my mom once started crying, telling me and my siblings that she was so embarrassed and ashamed of us that when her friends were all talking about how great their kids are, she could only sit there silently because we're so unappreciative and selfish, obnoxious brats. i was 9 years old, my little sister was 7 :/

i know it hurts like hell, but just remember, it's not your fault. you can see the ridiculous accusations (i mean her phone's signal, come on, that's not even close to being in your control), and you don't feel the blame until after she puts it on you, because the blame shouldn't be yours to begin with. it's not your fault, and you are NOT worthless. follow your dreams and make her sorry one day, let her realize just how much you can do DESPITE her. you're a great person, and don't forget it!

[Chris.]

I'm sorry to hear about this. Well I think you should try to stay away from your mom alittle bit more. I also think you should see your councilor or anyone that you can talk to on a decent basis. You cant let what your mom says affects you or you will just be destroyed. Be your own person. No ones other opinions matter. The only things that matters is yourself. Forget about the mom thing, forget about all she said, then ask yourself: What do I have that others don't? What do I like about myself? Think about it. Then think to yourself: What 1 Thing do I want to change that is realistic? Then make a plan to change it. Remember, change doesn't happen over night. Be patient. Love yourself for who you are - and if there are certain things that you can improve on and it will make you even happier and will be a bonus in your life, then make steps to accomplish your goal and change.

Best wishes,
Chris

[Pre9428]

Thanks everyone.

You know, sometime it's just way to hard to deal with?
I can't stay away from her, I live with her.
She's always in my face.
I don't even feel like waking up somtimes cuz I just
feel so useless.
I don't even know what to do anymore.
There's literally no one I can talk to here.
I'm just so lost =/

[Chris.]

I'm sorry you have to deal with this.

I know the feeling of just wanting to quit - just wanting all the pain, all the words, all those horrible actions to go away. The feeling and craving of happiness.

Happiness is something we create - its not given to us.

If you ever just need to express your feelings, or just talk to someone you can always Private Message me.

Best wishes,
Chris

[Heartlines.]

It's hard when you have a parent who doesn't seem to even care. I would talk to her. Tell her exactly what you feel about her, and how you feel about what she does to you. It's so helpful to let all the pent up emotions out. It may make your relationship with your mom worse, or better. But either way, releasing all those negative feelings can take a weight off your shoulders. Write her a letter, or hash it out one day.

But do you want to know something? You're better than what she makes you out to be. You can do anything you want to do in life. Why wouldn't you be able to? Out of the billions of people in this world, don't let one person make you feel like you can't do anything. Because you can. If she can't encourage you the way a mom is meant to, then you have to encourage yourself. And find people who will also encourage you. It's going to be a bit hard, but you're able to do it.

Also, find a club or a sport to join. Do after school activities. The more you're away from home, the better you're going to feel. Hang out with friends, do things you like. Don't let your mom be a set back. Do what you want to do.

Hope this helped.
Take care<3