Christmas Depression?

[ac2]

I'm so sad, that Christmas honestly just doesn't mean anything anymore, and it used to be my favorite holiday! Everyone asks what I want and I kind of just put it off, so that its to late to really get anything. Nothing is christmasy this year, there's so much wrong in my family along with a family issue that only I can freaking fix. Im going to fail school. Im so stressed! The ONLY christmas shit we've even attempted is a damn tree. My mother even finally gave up on getting me a present, and its so stupid because I felt sad I wasn't getting anything, but I know I don't deserve anything, so it works out. I feel like I desere the pain so I'm really just kind of letting it consume me. I kind of wished someone would've pushed me harder, actually might have asked why I didn't want anything, cared that something was obviously wrong. I'm just ranting again, if you read it I'm sorry for wasting your time!

[Chris.]

Your not wasting my time. I think that we sometimes just get in these moods because of the stress - we feel worthless and we feel like we shouldn't even be here. I think you need to maybe start realizing that you ARE someone. That you DO deserve a present, and that even though your family is going though a tough time that you still have each other. Around the holidays, trees, and presents don't matter - its all about family and spending time with those we love. I think you need to realize that even though your Christmas may not be so great - that atleast you have a family that cares enough to ask you what you want for Christmas, and be happy that you even have a family; because some people don't.


Best wishes,
Chris